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so i have figured it all out.
no matter what,
love always means pain.
there is the obvious
"oh i love you and you don't love me"
thing, which is a good jumping point.
then there is the more gray
"we love each other but can't be together"
situation.
then there is the more complicated
"we love each other and are together but jane doe or joe blow out there
is in love with one of us and is hurting"
i'm not depressed
or hurt or anything,
in fact i'll probably be the one to hurt someone
which sucks, because i don't know why.
he's good to me,
a sarcastic ass hole
but what do you do?
i'm not happy the way you expect to be in a situation like this, you know.
but then again when was i ever happy...
always the question to ponder.
i always thought that i was not emotionally capable of the
emotionless, pleasure-seeking "relationship"
but i think that may be the only one i could ever be
any "good" at.
no matter what,
love always means pain.
there is the obvious
"oh i love you and you don't love me"
thing, which is a good jumping point.
then there is the more gray
"we love each other but can't be together"
situation.
then there is the more complicated
"we love each other and are together but jane doe or joe blow out there
is in love with one of us and is hurting"
i'm not depressed
or hurt or anything,
in fact i'll probably be the one to hurt someone
which sucks, because i don't know why.
he's good to me,
a sarcastic ass hole
but what do you do?
i'm not happy the way you expect to be in a situation like this, you know.
but then again when was i ever happy...
always the question to ponder.
i always thought that i was not emotionally capable of the
emotionless, pleasure-seeking "relationship"
but i think that may be the only one i could ever be
any "good" at.