There's A Cold Wind Blowing...
Saturday night was interesting...
I went up to the Giraffe to meet a bunch of co-workers for a going away party for one of our line cooks...Of course Joe, the guest of honor, didn't show up, which surprised no one...We had fun none-the-less...
I drank a pitcher of beer and a white russian and I was feeling pretty good by the time Justin showed up...I kept watching the door for him wondering just when he'd walk in...
He finally showed up with this girl Jackie, who's apparently been like his best friend for years...It was cool, she was nice, and in my drunken state, I even confessed my feelings for him to her...It was rather amusing...
I talked to Justin, told him that it was the last night he'd see me, as I was planning to drive up to Gainesville the next day...He was asking where abouts Gainesville is and I told him it was north and that he'd be driving through it on his way home...We chit chatted about it for a little bit, and then made plans to have breakfast/lunch when he and Jackie drove through...
He said he'd call and I even asked if he was sure he had my number...He told me again before we all left that he'd call...Of course, he didn't call me last night...I ended up calling him, and he told me that they might stay in Orlando for an extra day and that he'd call me today to let me know their definite plans...Of course, once again he didn't call...This time, I'm NOT calling him...
If I don't hear from him in two weeks, I'll call just to say hi, and will try not to bother him after that...It'll be HIM all over again!
It just really drives me nuts because I KNOW that he likes me...I KNOW it! Veronika says that maybe it's because he knew he'd be leaving and didn't want to start anything because he didn't want to leave me hanging, but really, by not telling me anything at all he's leaving me hanging anyway!
Rumor has it that he's planning on coming back, which would be cool...I mean, I would certainly hope that he'd finally get some balls by then!
He's perfect for me, ya know? I don't know if he's my soul mate, but I definitely know we're good together! He's as passionate about music as I am, and we get along great...I just don't know what to do!
My first instinct is to just sit around listening to Coldplay and Dashboard Confessional and just fall into a deep depression until I finally go numb and I just don't feel anything anymore...At least then I wouldn't have to worry about getting hurt ever again...
On top of all that rejection, I have to deal with being blown off by one of my best friends today...I drove up to Gainesville yesterday so I could spend time with Nicole before she has to go back to school...I went over to her house last night and Jason, Erik, and Melanie were there...We hung out, but Nicole was nowhere to be found most of the night...I called her today and she was busy doing this and that, so I didn't get to see her at all...I'm beginning to feel like this was a wasted trip...
She made a big deal about seeing me before she left, and I made the huge effort to take off from work, and drive up here to see her, and she can't even make a little time to hang out...I could've stayed in Orlando yesterday and today and hung out with Justin and Kirstin before THEY go back home! Instead, I sat at home most of the day today...I ran a couple errands that I had to take care of, but that was it!
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow, and I have to take my car in for maintenance work on Wednesday, so I did HAVE to come up here for a couple days anyway...I just wish I hadn't rearanged my entire schedule for no reason...I won't call Nicole at all for the rest of the time I'm here! And then, just before she has to leave for school, I'll thank her for wasting my week...
Anyway, I need to get some sleep so I don't fall asleep in the dentist chair tomorrow...Until next time kids...
I went up to the Giraffe to meet a bunch of co-workers for a going away party for one of our line cooks...Of course Joe, the guest of honor, didn't show up, which surprised no one...We had fun none-the-less...
I drank a pitcher of beer and a white russian and I was feeling pretty good by the time Justin showed up...I kept watching the door for him wondering just when he'd walk in...
He finally showed up with this girl Jackie, who's apparently been like his best friend for years...It was cool, she was nice, and in my drunken state, I even confessed my feelings for him to her...It was rather amusing...
I talked to Justin, told him that it was the last night he'd see me, as I was planning to drive up to Gainesville the next day...He was asking where abouts Gainesville is and I told him it was north and that he'd be driving through it on his way home...We chit chatted about it for a little bit, and then made plans to have breakfast/lunch when he and Jackie drove through...
He said he'd call and I even asked if he was sure he had my number...He told me again before we all left that he'd call...Of course, he didn't call me last night...I ended up calling him, and he told me that they might stay in Orlando for an extra day and that he'd call me today to let me know their definite plans...Of course, once again he didn't call...This time, I'm NOT calling him...
If I don't hear from him in two weeks, I'll call just to say hi, and will try not to bother him after that...It'll be HIM all over again!
It just really drives me nuts because I KNOW that he likes me...I KNOW it! Veronika says that maybe it's because he knew he'd be leaving and didn't want to start anything because he didn't want to leave me hanging, but really, by not telling me anything at all he's leaving me hanging anyway!
Rumor has it that he's planning on coming back, which would be cool...I mean, I would certainly hope that he'd finally get some balls by then!
He's perfect for me, ya know? I don't know if he's my soul mate, but I definitely know we're good together! He's as passionate about music as I am, and we get along great...I just don't know what to do!
My first instinct is to just sit around listening to Coldplay and Dashboard Confessional and just fall into a deep depression until I finally go numb and I just don't feel anything anymore...At least then I wouldn't have to worry about getting hurt ever again...
On top of all that rejection, I have to deal with being blown off by one of my best friends today...I drove up to Gainesville yesterday so I could spend time with Nicole before she has to go back to school...I went over to her house last night and Jason, Erik, and Melanie were there...We hung out, but Nicole was nowhere to be found most of the night...I called her today and she was busy doing this and that, so I didn't get to see her at all...I'm beginning to feel like this was a wasted trip...
She made a big deal about seeing me before she left, and I made the huge effort to take off from work, and drive up here to see her, and she can't even make a little time to hang out...I could've stayed in Orlando yesterday and today and hung out with Justin and Kirstin before THEY go back home! Instead, I sat at home most of the day today...I ran a couple errands that I had to take care of, but that was it!
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow, and I have to take my car in for maintenance work on Wednesday, so I did HAVE to come up here for a couple days anyway...I just wish I hadn't rearanged my entire schedule for no reason...I won't call Nicole at all for the rest of the time I'm here! And then, just before she has to leave for school, I'll thank her for wasting my week...
Anyway, I need to get some sleep so I don't fall asleep in the dentist chair tomorrow...Until next time kids...