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[cluey22]

I cant do this anymore. I cant sit here and pretend like everything is fine and dandy. My mother fucking birthday is on tuesday and i am not having anything on it because i dont know who would come and who would wanna be there and who really gives a shit. I feel like crap. Everyone else had a great birthday, a party, a girlsnight, a fucking festival if u will and i cant have that. I could if i wanted to but last time i checked only have 2 people there with me wouldnt be so much fun. I am just upset, i feel like shit . This is why i wanted to cancel. I havent had that great of a birthday in a while. I mean yes last year i had a party, but the only people that showed up that ment anything to me were lauren and steph.
I dont know maybe i am over reacting. maybe i just dont get it or i am just upset because of fucking work. .. .

I am going with zach to Bonita tonight to drop off his moms car, i will ve home tomorrow.

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