running speed trials, standing in place
I want love if love wants me
I want God if God wants me
I just can't hold on to what I believe
--The Fire Theft, "Uncle Mountain"
It's been a long semester. I don't think any of us realize how much we've changed.
I don't want to lose what I already have, but I don't want to give up on what I want. But how do I do both?
I suppose I shouldn't ask for advice if I'm going to be vague, but I don't like details right now. Details hurt people. And, details are what a good portion of the exam I have tomorrow will be based on. I should study.
I've never felt this much hope, but I've never felt this much doubt. It's a weird situation. I want answers! I hope this summer brings some.
I wanted to put more lyrics in this, because there are a whole bunch floating around my head. But then I decided it would be an overabundance of lyrics that no one else really cares about, haha. There are just so many that I could use. I used to fall asleep to my iPod. Now, my iPod keeps me awake at night thinking, because so many of the songs I hear eerily reflect so many different things going on in my head already. Falling asleep to silence has been sort of nice too, though. And it's actually been pretty silent here, since everyone has either gone home or is too busy studying to make much noise. It's just this one bird. I'm pretty sure before coming to NH I didn't know that some birds are actually very nocturnal. And they very much enjoy chirping away in the tree outside my window all night long.
Right. Back to studying. Two more exams-- and a whole bunch of packing-- and then I can go home. Almost there!
I want God if God wants me
I just can't hold on to what I believe
--The Fire Theft, "Uncle Mountain"
It's been a long semester. I don't think any of us realize how much we've changed.
I don't want to lose what I already have, but I don't want to give up on what I want. But how do I do both?
I suppose I shouldn't ask for advice if I'm going to be vague, but I don't like details right now. Details hurt people. And, details are what a good portion of the exam I have tomorrow will be based on. I should study.
I've never felt this much hope, but I've never felt this much doubt. It's a weird situation. I want answers! I hope this summer brings some.
I wanted to put more lyrics in this, because there are a whole bunch floating around my head. But then I decided it would be an overabundance of lyrics that no one else really cares about, haha. There are just so many that I could use. I used to fall asleep to my iPod. Now, my iPod keeps me awake at night thinking, because so many of the songs I hear eerily reflect so many different things going on in my head already. Falling asleep to silence has been sort of nice too, though. And it's actually been pretty silent here, since everyone has either gone home or is too busy studying to make much noise. It's just this one bird. I'm pretty sure before coming to NH I didn't know that some birds are actually very nocturnal. And they very much enjoy chirping away in the tree outside my window all night long.
Right. Back to studying. Two more exams-- and a whole bunch of packing-- and then I can go home. Almost there!