Being emotional here
Well what can I say? My grades are slipping, I feel miserable. I tried to be someone that I am not truly am. I became lazy, content, care-free about everything. However, I was haunted by my past experiences with people I gave advice and help to (I have a nak for that stuff), depressed, slipping grades, and I kept on getting flashbacks about my past. Every time I get flashbacks, I ponder about death. What is death? How do you prepare for the inevitable when your time comes? What would you do? The more I ponder about death, the more I am fearless. I think constantly about destruction, chaos, death, and becoming more prepared for it day by day. I am no longer afraid of death, at all because I think about it constantly. I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I am anti-social, I have no girlfriends, I have no friends, I am in peer advocates, my house was toilet-papered, I am not going back to home (the UK), my grades are slipping, my life.... is crumbling like a cookie with milk. I have helped TONS of FRICKIN' people and none of them help me out in anyway. I have no idea what to do next.