because the bus always leave without me
On my way home from work today, I saw this woman running after the bus which was pulling into the bus stop. She looked really tired but there she was, still running, still running as fast as she could after the damn bus. Just when she was nearing the bus stop, the doors of the bus just slid shut and the bus simply pulled out of the bus stop.
And then it hit me. At that moment I just stood there, stared at the woman and the bus then back again and I realized, THIS is exactly why I'm feeling so upset. It's like there I am, running so hard after something that is THERE and I want it, even though I'm shit tired, even though I'm exhausted. I'm still running. And then. The fucking bus just leaves. Without me. LIKE MY EXCHANGE. Slipped out of my hands just like this.
I've been working so fucking hard to apply for exchange through the semester and I'm working so fucking hard NOW to fund my exchange myself. It just doesn't seem fair that now I'm deprived of what I'm working so hard for.
I know I shouldn't blow this out of proportion but hell. This is how it always is. I always find what makes me happy and then. It gets taken away from me.
Because the bus always leave without me. Like always.
And then it hit me. At that moment I just stood there, stared at the woman and the bus then back again and I realized, THIS is exactly why I'm feeling so upset. It's like there I am, running so hard after something that is THERE and I want it, even though I'm shit tired, even though I'm exhausted. I'm still running. And then. The fucking bus just leaves. Without me. LIKE MY EXCHANGE. Slipped out of my hands just like this.
I've been working so fucking hard to apply for exchange through the semester and I'm working so fucking hard NOW to fund my exchange myself. It just doesn't seem fair that now I'm deprived of what I'm working so hard for.
I know I shouldn't blow this out of proportion but hell. This is how it always is. I always find what makes me happy and then. It gets taken away from me.
Because the bus always leave without me. Like always.