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hello!
i decided to give it a possible update.
i feel like its been a while.
where am i at in life?
im in the middle of my junior year and i cant believe its gone so far
ive learned so much in just the span of 2 and 1/2 years
as much as i should probably say that i learned a lot in my classes, i think i've learned more about life, about who i am, about people, about God, and about this world than anything.
dont get me wrong, i think ive gotten a good education thus far, but in my personal opinion, what ive leared outside of that is so much more important.
looking back at this past year i can see how ive been stretched and molded probably more than i have in my small 21 years of life.
it may have been the hardest, but definitly the most worth-while.
ive cried, ive hurt, ive been angry, ive rejoiced, ive praised, ive worshiped, ive been confused, but ive found my joy and thats why i still am standing strong.
that joy is my strength.
january brought the bike trip where i learned about my potential, the strength of God, the literal hills of life and how theyre worth pressing on because the view at the top and the feeling of accomplishing so much is something that words cant even do justice to
march was when my eyes were open to how powerful our God is. to see the distruction of New Orleans, but even more, the distruction of peoples hearts in New Orleans, and still the spirit of persistance is something that at the time was so hard to think was even possible yet inspiried me and opened my eyes to what it means to have nothing at all yet still being joyful.
april. i dotn even know where to begin. loosing james probably was one of the hardest things that i have/will ever have to go through, and still going through, in my life. i felt a lot like peter- Jesus looking me straight in the eyes saying laura, keep your eyes focused on me, and walk on the water towards me. keep your eyes locked in my eyes and you wont sink. april 22nd changed my life and will always be a day that i will never forget and will always be flashing through my mind, hour by hour. april 22nd and the days/months/even now following was when i dug deep into my heart and found that joy that sustains me through the pain. april is the month that started my honest quest for strength and joy. april showed me what it is to praise through the storm. april showed me what it is to cry out to Jesus, broken and all. april still brings questions, but even more recently, its brought me peace. just in the past month ive been able to be okay with what happened. i know that God is using april for good and daily i see that playing out.
june-august- this summer i learned more about deep joy, strength, and trust. i learned what it is to have a faith like a child. i learned about the simplicity of life and how we, as adults, complicate things all too often.
september-now- im still learning about how there is purpose in my pain. im learning that God truely is in absolute control. im learning about how there isnt one thing that gets overlooked with him. how every detail of our life is planned out perfectly and there isnt one thing that isnt turned around for good. im learning about how set-apart us seekers really are. how "if were friends with the world, then were enemies of God". im still learning about who my God is and who i am. ive been learning about how far off i am as to knowing what i stand for and believe in with politics. i want to make my beliefs and views my own and search diligently to back my opinions up. ive been learning what it is to live in desperation and in stillness that i am exactly where God wants me to be. i learned how weak i truely am and how i need to seek before doing anything or it wont work out. i know what i want in life, and im going to keep pressing towards the goal.
im looking forward to this new year. a new year to remember where ive been and focus on where im going. i welcome the hard times because i know that those hard times are the times where true character is built and ultimate refining and molding take place. im thankful for the hard times of this year. i know that there is purpose in everything and i will refuse to believe anything else.
i decided to give it a possible update.
i feel like its been a while.
where am i at in life?
im in the middle of my junior year and i cant believe its gone so far
ive learned so much in just the span of 2 and 1/2 years
as much as i should probably say that i learned a lot in my classes, i think i've learned more about life, about who i am, about people, about God, and about this world than anything.
dont get me wrong, i think ive gotten a good education thus far, but in my personal opinion, what ive leared outside of that is so much more important.
looking back at this past year i can see how ive been stretched and molded probably more than i have in my small 21 years of life.
it may have been the hardest, but definitly the most worth-while.
ive cried, ive hurt, ive been angry, ive rejoiced, ive praised, ive worshiped, ive been confused, but ive found my joy and thats why i still am standing strong.
that joy is my strength.
january brought the bike trip where i learned about my potential, the strength of God, the literal hills of life and how theyre worth pressing on because the view at the top and the feeling of accomplishing so much is something that words cant even do justice to
march was when my eyes were open to how powerful our God is. to see the distruction of New Orleans, but even more, the distruction of peoples hearts in New Orleans, and still the spirit of persistance is something that at the time was so hard to think was even possible yet inspiried me and opened my eyes to what it means to have nothing at all yet still being joyful.
april. i dotn even know where to begin. loosing james probably was one of the hardest things that i have/will ever have to go through, and still going through, in my life. i felt a lot like peter- Jesus looking me straight in the eyes saying laura, keep your eyes focused on me, and walk on the water towards me. keep your eyes locked in my eyes and you wont sink. april 22nd changed my life and will always be a day that i will never forget and will always be flashing through my mind, hour by hour. april 22nd and the days/months/even now following was when i dug deep into my heart and found that joy that sustains me through the pain. april is the month that started my honest quest for strength and joy. april showed me what it is to praise through the storm. april showed me what it is to cry out to Jesus, broken and all. april still brings questions, but even more recently, its brought me peace. just in the past month ive been able to be okay with what happened. i know that God is using april for good and daily i see that playing out.
june-august- this summer i learned more about deep joy, strength, and trust. i learned what it is to have a faith like a child. i learned about the simplicity of life and how we, as adults, complicate things all too often.
september-now- im still learning about how there is purpose in my pain. im learning that God truely is in absolute control. im learning about how there isnt one thing that gets overlooked with him. how every detail of our life is planned out perfectly and there isnt one thing that isnt turned around for good. im learning about how set-apart us seekers really are. how "if were friends with the world, then were enemies of God". im still learning about who my God is and who i am. ive been learning about how far off i am as to knowing what i stand for and believe in with politics. i want to make my beliefs and views my own and search diligently to back my opinions up. ive been learning what it is to live in desperation and in stillness that i am exactly where God wants me to be. i learned how weak i truely am and how i need to seek before doing anything or it wont work out. i know what i want in life, and im going to keep pressing towards the goal.
im looking forward to this new year. a new year to remember where ive been and focus on where im going. i welcome the hard times because i know that those hard times are the times where true character is built and ultimate refining and molding take place. im thankful for the hard times of this year. i know that there is purpose in everything and i will refuse to believe anything else.