locked up in my self-hatred

Oct 19, 2004 19:12

Am I a horrible person? I've been thinking this a lot lately, I can't get it out of my head. I just want to collapse and cut my arms and lie there and bleed and not have to get up and face life.

I feel like everything I do is wrong, and no matter what I do I wind up hurting someone or feeling guilty. I'm so screwed up and I have so much going on that shouldn't be, while I neglect things I should probably pay more attention to.

I don't know who I am anymore half the time. I was doing so well when I started, what went wrong?

...I don't know what else to say, and I should probably start working on studying for a test I have tomorrow, so I'm gonna go for now. Be back later.

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