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Ungh, I wish I liked someone, I'm so not used to not even having a crush on someone.
Anyhoo, feeling depressed and insulted and generally sad. School is fine and so's family stuff, but the whole social thing is really bringing down my mood. I love tech but it's gettingharder and harder to want to go cause there are just people I don't want to see exactly or things I don't want to have to deal with. It's just really not cool because tech is like MY thing. It's really all I do. I'm going to be really important to tech next year cause I'll be a senior, but right now i'm just like, "guess it's about time i headed over to tech". I'm not sure I like the person I turn into when I'm there, or just, well, a couple people are starting to make me feel really uncomfortable and I don't know what to do about it. Oh, and if you are reading this, it's definitely not you, don't worry, I love you. I'm just really lost about that.
Plus I haven't had a more than a day bf since scott, which was like, well, long enough ago to want a guy again. But I don't even like anyone that way. How can you find someone if there's no one who grabs your attention? It's not even like I spend my time looking, I just wish that maybe he would just show up and I'd like him. eh, i'm just ranting now. not helping that like every day christian keeps telling me that i "need to get laid", lol. thanks for the help christian, but that's not very helpful at all, it just reminds me that i'm single and alone.
And I have java first thing in the morning and i think it might kill me soon, maybe i should just make the leap and drop it...i'm not going to, but it's on the back of my mind...
night all, sweet dreams
Anyhoo, feeling depressed and insulted and generally sad. School is fine and so's family stuff, but the whole social thing is really bringing down my mood. I love tech but it's gettingharder and harder to want to go cause there are just people I don't want to see exactly or things I don't want to have to deal with. It's just really not cool because tech is like MY thing. It's really all I do. I'm going to be really important to tech next year cause I'll be a senior, but right now i'm just like, "guess it's about time i headed over to tech". I'm not sure I like the person I turn into when I'm there, or just, well, a couple people are starting to make me feel really uncomfortable and I don't know what to do about it. Oh, and if you are reading this, it's definitely not you, don't worry, I love you. I'm just really lost about that.
Plus I haven't had a more than a day bf since scott, which was like, well, long enough ago to want a guy again. But I don't even like anyone that way. How can you find someone if there's no one who grabs your attention? It's not even like I spend my time looking, I just wish that maybe he would just show up and I'd like him. eh, i'm just ranting now. not helping that like every day christian keeps telling me that i "need to get laid", lol. thanks for the help christian, but that's not very helpful at all, it just reminds me that i'm single and alone.
And I have java first thing in the morning and i think it might kill me soon, maybe i should just make the leap and drop it...i'm not going to, but it's on the back of my mind...
night all, sweet dreams