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After some thought. I have figured out why I have been a bit depressed lately.
Its curious to note how many people were nice to me purely because I was with devin, whose company they actually enjoyed. This depresses the hell out of me. I know I am capable of making friends. The issue is really, when I meet someone and introduce them to my friends, they instantly either a)take up with my friends/significant other or b)don't want to speak to me again.
This sucks. To put it blandly. And honestly: I would rather KNOW who was cool with me because they had to be and those that were nice to me because they wanted to be friends with me and not because they thought my boyfriend was cool.
This is such shit. I'm frustrated.
So: fuck all of you that have used me to be closer to people I'm friends with and fuck all of you who were nice to me purely because you thought you should be. I'm so sick of all of this shit.
Its curious to note how many people were nice to me purely because I was with devin, whose company they actually enjoyed. This depresses the hell out of me. I know I am capable of making friends. The issue is really, when I meet someone and introduce them to my friends, they instantly either a)take up with my friends/significant other or b)don't want to speak to me again.
This sucks. To put it blandly. And honestly: I would rather KNOW who was cool with me because they had to be and those that were nice to me because they wanted to be friends with me and not because they thought my boyfriend was cool.
This is such shit. I'm frustrated.
So: fuck all of you that have used me to be closer to people I'm friends with and fuck all of you who were nice to me purely because you thought you should be. I'm so sick of all of this shit.