oh sehun
i. background
i really forget when was the last time i spazzed about EXO. i know EXO since 2 years ago (thanks to yesung's wife) and i wasn't really interested about them. my first impression of EXO was 'oh, just another Super Junior'. i was wondering who will leave EXO (now, it's turned out to be Duizhang Kris). i liked EXO, even tough i doubted that their debut single, MAMA, will sold well. then, the one-year break (i'm not sure if it's really one year) happened. and honestly, i was bored waiting for them. i didn't care about Wolf, their long-awaited title track, either.
fast forward to 2014.
ii. oh sehun
i watched EXO's Growl MV just recently because i didn't have any new song. then i noticed oh sehun who is dancing with this adorable focused look on his face.
his focused expression wasn't my main concern at that time. i was sad. my heart and my mind felt really heavy with great pressure. then i watched Growl MV, thinking while my eyes following every move of sehun.
"it must be great being sehun right now. he's still very young, just a year above me, but he's already shining bright on the stage. dancing, doing what he loves. i know very vell that being a celebrity is hard, you have to deal with tight schedule, little privacy, sasaengs, but... i think that's better than sitting still, just spending time wondering what you will be in the future. sehun is really different from me. i envy him. i want to be like him, living his dream and shining so bright."
i didn't know why i thought of sehun like that, altough there was kai, who is the same age with sehun. maybe i like sehun because he is sehun?
in the end, oh sehun is really precious to me.
oh, i still envy him, okay.