Just a thought....
Do you ever wonder why we put ourselves in situations where for one brief moment you think everything is so wonderful and everything is GREAT but then to turn around and feel like you just comitted murder? Now I know this is harsh but its soemthing that eats away at me. I put myself in the best situation to make me happy and I think it makes someone else happy (or so its seems) and then all of a sudden I realize what I just did and feel like shit and I have done something wrong and am fooling myself with the illusion of happiness, again. I am not saying im not a happy person because everyone who knows me knows I am almost all the time BUT I believe that nothing can ever be perfect. I strive for perfection only to let myself down and let others down. Im not asking why I always do this but, Ive been yelled at more times than a def dog about this because I want everything to be hunky doory. I believe we can have moments of perfection, like a moment in time where that one friend you had doubts about shows you how he or she cares. Or how one time you mother or father can tell you I LOVE YOU and it never meant anything until then.......
But for that brief moment everything is perfect.
Don't wish me happiness
I don't expect to be happy all the time...
It's gotten beyond that somehow.
Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor.
I will need them all.
Anne Morrow Lindbergh
RIP M. J. 2/19/2007.... Im sorry for your loss Jeff.
Tell your family you love them, tell your friends you appreciate them, tell yourself to be honest and perfection will not come.