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Tonight, I sat in a car at the beach and cried because my heart's been shattered by the frustrations of life,
And my boyfriend smiled and wiped my tears away and told me that I'm beautiful.
As I cried into his shoulder, he brushed my hair out of my face and kissed my cheek, and then wrapped his arms around me so tightly that I could barely breathe.
And for some reason, I couldn't think of anywhere else that I'd rather be at that very moment.
I've never met somebody more understanding in my entire life. Someone who sees me for more than what I could be or what I will be. He sees me for who I am and who I have been. He sees me entirely.
When I ask him questions, he will answer without hesitation. He'll give me an honest opinion without apologizing.
I spent the past four years dealing with indecision and all that gay bullshit. I'm not ready to do it again. I deserve more than that. I deserve better.
I won't lie. I had fun. I did the whole no-string thing for a while and it was alright.
But this... is so much more. It almost feels wrong.
I don't really know what I'm doing anymore. I think I need sleep.
And my boyfriend smiled and wiped my tears away and told me that I'm beautiful.
As I cried into his shoulder, he brushed my hair out of my face and kissed my cheek, and then wrapped his arms around me so tightly that I could barely breathe.
And for some reason, I couldn't think of anywhere else that I'd rather be at that very moment.
I've never met somebody more understanding in my entire life. Someone who sees me for more than what I could be or what I will be. He sees me for who I am and who I have been. He sees me entirely.
When I ask him questions, he will answer without hesitation. He'll give me an honest opinion without apologizing.
I spent the past four years dealing with indecision and all that gay bullshit. I'm not ready to do it again. I deserve more than that. I deserve better.
I won't lie. I had fun. I did the whole no-string thing for a while and it was alright.
But this... is so much more. It almost feels wrong.
I don't really know what I'm doing anymore. I think I need sleep.