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i never thought health class would ever teach me something. i was filling out the "self-evaluation" quiz and i realized how rediculous it all is. there are different categories...like, physical health, emotional health, nutritional, safety, social, intellectual, spiritual, etc. the list goes on and on. after i added up my scores and recieved an incredibly low grade, probably the lowest i've gotten on a test, i looked at sophia's paper. she had a score considerably higher, and she was shocked to see that i scored so low. after reading through my responses, she would exclaim that I need to change my scores for a lot of the answers: for nutritional i scored myself very low, even though i drink more water than most, eat more fruit, eat whole-wheat bread...for social i didn't put myself high for friendly interaction with others...after sophia made my answers more appropriate according to her, my score was much higher.
this is where my realization occurs. if someone scores low in the emotional health section, they're going to score themselves much lower on the rest of the sections. the testing system is horribly flawed--how can they expect students to give an accurate evaluation of themselves if they might not like themselves?
ew. you don't want to listen to me talk about how angry/bored with myself i am most of the time. i'm sick of hearing about it.
the entry i wanted to post 3 nights ago was very different from this one. i could make this one decent, but i'm not inspired anymore. i'm mostly just frustrated with myself and very distracted by a phone call and how...ahh i need to learn to be a good person and grow up and stop being awkward.
i'm really happy, i swear.
1. this weekend was SO AMAZING. wowwwww. that's all i can say. i NEVER repeat NEVER thought i would be so successful this weekend...maybe nothing else will happen and being in high school and not being the ideal anorexic look may ruin it for me, but at the moment i am ECSTATIC with how things went.
2. the jungle book? i love you. im proud of you. never expected us to do so well...now we just have to WORK.
3. what the heck mr. rutherford? what are you trying to do to me, calling me back for the lead? are you TRYING to kill me? i didnt care about the crucible and now i care SO MUCH. dear clare, shut up, get over it.
4. i'm excited for sadies! my first dance with a date. i'm not prepared...dress shopping might end up happening like...the day before. i'm busy.
5. no, im not that busy. i'm just stupid. i spend my time online (doing this kind of shit), not doing my homework, not doing piano, crap, i have a lesson tomorrow.
6. i haven't been focused on anything in the past two months. my thoughts are darting around and deciding that they don't want to think about school, they want to thing about text messages, or forensics, or song lyrics.
i need to end this lj, because its too long, and its all just a bunch of floating thoughts.
goodnight livejournal. maybe after writing this my thoughts will stay on the page and keep out of my head. that's what im hoping for.
this is where my realization occurs. if someone scores low in the emotional health section, they're going to score themselves much lower on the rest of the sections. the testing system is horribly flawed--how can they expect students to give an accurate evaluation of themselves if they might not like themselves?
ew. you don't want to listen to me talk about how angry/bored with myself i am most of the time. i'm sick of hearing about it.
the entry i wanted to post 3 nights ago was very different from this one. i could make this one decent, but i'm not inspired anymore. i'm mostly just frustrated with myself and very distracted by a phone call and how...ahh i need to learn to be a good person and grow up and stop being awkward.
i'm really happy, i swear.
1. this weekend was SO AMAZING. wowwwww. that's all i can say. i NEVER repeat NEVER thought i would be so successful this weekend...maybe nothing else will happen and being in high school and not being the ideal anorexic look may ruin it for me, but at the moment i am ECSTATIC with how things went.
2. the jungle book? i love you. im proud of you. never expected us to do so well...now we just have to WORK.
3. what the heck mr. rutherford? what are you trying to do to me, calling me back for the lead? are you TRYING to kill me? i didnt care about the crucible and now i care SO MUCH. dear clare, shut up, get over it.
4. i'm excited for sadies! my first dance with a date. i'm not prepared...dress shopping might end up happening like...the day before. i'm busy.
5. no, im not that busy. i'm just stupid. i spend my time online (doing this kind of shit), not doing my homework, not doing piano, crap, i have a lesson tomorrow.
6. i haven't been focused on anything in the past two months. my thoughts are darting around and deciding that they don't want to think about school, they want to thing about text messages, or forensics, or song lyrics.
i need to end this lj, because its too long, and its all just a bunch of floating thoughts.
goodnight livejournal. maybe after writing this my thoughts will stay on the page and keep out of my head. that's what im hoping for.