upon reflection, i see my reflection
i was just thinking about how i barely write in this anymore. i used to ramble on and on vaguely about my thoughts and such.. but now it seems that i have walked off the path that used to give me a place to unleash my unspoken thoughts and the words that were trying seek escape. it has come to my attention that i, for some reason, do not escape to my lj as an outlet. revisiting past entries makes me realize that it sounds like i used to know what i want.. but now everything just seems so.. unclear.
in a year, my general feelings have gone up and down 2-3 times already.. do i move on too quickly? do i fall easily? i dont know. i dont know what im doing.. either im afraid of going for something i want, or i dont even know what i want.. but im willing to give it a try. but there will always be a fear of being broken again. its hard to trust again, after being disappointed so many times in the past. i just want someone to show me the way.. to tell me that everything will be ok..
the princess is getting lonely in her castle in the sky.
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im getting tired of being the one putting in effort. im tired of not talking for weeks at a time, so when you feel like talking or hanging out, lemme know.. but dont expect me to always be there.
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between school and work.. life is pretty busy. im really tired these days..
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* i think this is my favourite song from Stars' most recent album, In Our Bedroom After The War.
in a year, my general feelings have gone up and down 2-3 times already.. do i move on too quickly? do i fall easily? i dont know. i dont know what im doing.. either im afraid of going for something i want, or i dont even know what i want.. but im willing to give it a try. but there will always be a fear of being broken again. its hard to trust again, after being disappointed so many times in the past. i just want someone to show me the way.. to tell me that everything will be ok..
the princess is getting lonely in her castle in the sky.
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im getting tired of being the one putting in effort. im tired of not talking for weeks at a time, so when you feel like talking or hanging out, lemme know.. but dont expect me to always be there.
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between school and work.. life is pretty busy. im really tired these days..
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* i think this is my favourite song from Stars' most recent album, In Our Bedroom After The War.