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It's very interesting...
Even though I might be loosing my apartment... actually with the way work is going I'm almost positive I will. I thought and hoped and crossed my fingers that they would have me going back to 40 hrs a week... *sigh* nope it's just 24 this week... ~_~ and only three days! 0.0 GAHH!!!
well... at least I'm... NOT not working this week.
But anyways even though everything is going to hell in a handbasket... for some odd reason... I'm not panicking and freaking out... maybee because it wasn't such a shock this time... because I've figured this was gonna happen and I've been planning on different things to do... one of which is going to Florida to stay with Miki and his parents for a little while.
... yah I know. Ever since I grew up I've been determined not to move in with a person I'm dating... it's something I'm still debating over. Looking at the ups and the downs... it isn't a permanent thing though. He says his freind Amber and James are planing on moving into a defferent apartment and that if I were to move down there they would be more than happy to move in with Michael and I. 4 people for a 2 bedroom apartment would be good.
And we're thinking about stting up some place for eithor of us to sleep if things get to hot and we need to seperate less... well "things" happen. I'm only iffy into it because there would be somebody else there so they could also help prevent things from happening.
I know it's probably a bit weird... and yet even though we wouldn't be sleeping togethor I still have this fear that he would never marry me if we did that. I have to have a lot of questions answered before I might possibly do it.
... 0.0 I just noticed something... "I DO IT" "IDIOT" move the I and you have idiot... weird? meh anyways.
also something interesting. I just came home from Sage's "The wishing well" and had found this stone grinder... I've seen them for a long time and I've been wanting one for the longest of time... not really sure WHY ... but... yah. I got it for super super cheep. Bought... what was it... sage? I think so. it was slightly ground sage.
Anyways I put some of the sage in the grinder... ground it up. burned some of it... and then (Yes I'm weird) I grabbed Freya and then sprinkled a circle on the ground. Starting from the north, turned clockwise, twice. and then sat down.
Then you want to know what I did? I prayed. *nods head* yep. a normal pray to god.
A christian with whitchy tendancies... Ai'nt I weird. ^-^ lol I've been praying like crazy latley trying to figure out what to do. if I should go to Florida? Cancel my plane ticket... maybee... get my money back... sell at least my table... get a storage unit, leave Freya with my parents and then take some of my most important stuff with me in my car and drive down to Florida. which would cost about 340 $... about how much I'd have to pay for rent if I had a room mate... lol.
Well I guess that's it for now.
Even though I might be loosing my apartment... actually with the way work is going I'm almost positive I will. I thought and hoped and crossed my fingers that they would have me going back to 40 hrs a week... *sigh* nope it's just 24 this week... ~_~ and only three days! 0.0 GAHH!!!
well... at least I'm... NOT not working this week.
But anyways even though everything is going to hell in a handbasket... for some odd reason... I'm not panicking and freaking out... maybee because it wasn't such a shock this time... because I've figured this was gonna happen and I've been planning on different things to do... one of which is going to Florida to stay with Miki and his parents for a little while.
... yah I know. Ever since I grew up I've been determined not to move in with a person I'm dating... it's something I'm still debating over. Looking at the ups and the downs... it isn't a permanent thing though. He says his freind Amber and James are planing on moving into a defferent apartment and that if I were to move down there they would be more than happy to move in with Michael and I. 4 people for a 2 bedroom apartment would be good.
And we're thinking about stting up some place for eithor of us to sleep if things get to hot and we need to seperate less... well "things" happen. I'm only iffy into it because there would be somebody else there so they could also help prevent things from happening.
I know it's probably a bit weird... and yet even though we wouldn't be sleeping togethor I still have this fear that he would never marry me if we did that. I have to have a lot of questions answered before I might possibly do it.
... 0.0 I just noticed something... "I DO IT" "IDIOT" move the I and you have idiot... weird? meh anyways.
also something interesting. I just came home from Sage's "The wishing well" and had found this stone grinder... I've seen them for a long time and I've been wanting one for the longest of time... not really sure WHY ... but... yah. I got it for super super cheep. Bought... what was it... sage? I think so. it was slightly ground sage.
Anyways I put some of the sage in the grinder... ground it up. burned some of it... and then (Yes I'm weird) I grabbed Freya and then sprinkled a circle on the ground. Starting from the north, turned clockwise, twice. and then sat down.
Then you want to know what I did? I prayed. *nods head* yep. a normal pray to god.
A christian with whitchy tendancies... Ai'nt I weird. ^-^ lol I've been praying like crazy latley trying to figure out what to do. if I should go to Florida? Cancel my plane ticket... maybee... get my money back... sell at least my table... get a storage unit, leave Freya with my parents and then take some of my most important stuff with me in my car and drive down to Florida. which would cost about 340 $... about how much I'd have to pay for rent if I had a room mate... lol.
Well I guess that's it for now.