146... how many was that?

[cloudsinstrife]

It's been... a while since I thought about it. I never really cared, and I think everyone just understood that it's not a big deal. It really isn't. I'm not the one that should have lived - especially since I didn't remember who I was living for. I still miss him.

This toast is for him.

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[nogoodpeople]

We tried.

[cloudsinstrife]

I know that now.

[nogoodpeople]

I'm sorry.

[cloudsinstrife]

It happened and I'm alive and able to live for the both of us. I just... need to remember that.

[nogoodpeople]

Perhaps he'll show up here, some day.

[cloudsinstrife]

Mm.

[nogoodpeople]

I'm not sure it's much of consolation, but...

[cloudsinstrife]

He'd probably smack me if he heard me right now.

[nogoodpeople]

It wouldn't surprise me.

[cloudsinstrife]

Then he would try to get me drunk.

[nogoodpeople]

I thought you were already trying to do that.

[cloudsinstrife]

No. I'm not.

[nogoodpeople]

Ah. I see.