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Hello I am still alive everyone.
It has been a long time and not alot has happened. Everything still seems to go to shit though. I feel like nothing is right. Ashley and I had a very long and seious talk the other day. We deffinately needed it. There are some things we learned about eachother that we needed to learn about eachother... so that was good.
Lately I have been thinking about doing things I dont normally think about. Not drinking or doing drugs or anything like that. Actually it has been the Marines. It has never been such a great idea before. I know I have talked about it but it really seems like I have nothing left to lose. Well maybe not quite that extreme, but it really seems like that is the only option left for me. FUCK!!! I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE!!! I AM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW!!! EVERYDAY IS CRAP!!! I SLEEP ON A WOOD FLOOR, I AM USUALLY WOKEN UP EARLY AND KEPT UP LATE BY SOME SCREAMING BABY, I HATE LIVING WITH MY MOM AND BROTHER AND SISTER AND HER FIANCE(WHO EVERYDAY I FEEL LIKE BEATING WITH A BASEBALL BAT OR SOME KIND OF HARD OBJECT)AND I AM SO TIRED OF HEARING A BABY CRY I AM ABOUT TO SCREAM!!!(technically I am type screaming)FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
Later.
It has been a long time and not alot has happened. Everything still seems to go to shit though. I feel like nothing is right. Ashley and I had a very long and seious talk the other day. We deffinately needed it. There are some things we learned about eachother that we needed to learn about eachother... so that was good.
Lately I have been thinking about doing things I dont normally think about. Not drinking or doing drugs or anything like that. Actually it has been the Marines. It has never been such a great idea before. I know I have talked about it but it really seems like I have nothing left to lose. Well maybe not quite that extreme, but it really seems like that is the only option left for me. FUCK!!! I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE!!! I AM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW!!! EVERYDAY IS CRAP!!! I SLEEP ON A WOOD FLOOR, I AM USUALLY WOKEN UP EARLY AND KEPT UP LATE BY SOME SCREAMING BABY, I HATE LIVING WITH MY MOM AND BROTHER AND SISTER AND HER FIANCE(WHO EVERYDAY I FEEL LIKE BEATING WITH A BASEBALL BAT OR SOME KIND OF HARD OBJECT)AND I AM SO TIRED OF HEARING A BABY CRY I AM ABOUT TO SCREAM!!!(technically I am type screaming)FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
Later.