Seperation Anxiety
Cleaning up...
There is a sense of accomplishment to be felt when one cleans, especially if you happen to be as disorganized as me. There is a sweet satisfaction once clutter is removed and everything has it's place. It's as cleasning for the person as it is for the space. While tidying up can be a positive experiance there always has to be set backs...
Reminders...Objects that retain memories and induce thought. Thoughts that hold a presence that take you back to the moment that they were created. Some places good and some places where I don't want to be. These are recounts I don't want to experiance. I want to drown it all out I don't want to remember, I don't want to feel, and I don't want to be here ever again...
It's time to clean up...No more mess, no more emotions, no more clutter. I want to free my mind of everything...
I need strength...I've ignored Text messages, phone calls, and empty apologies, but I am still tormented by memories...Everything needs to go
How could I be so stupid?
I listened to my heart, I followed it and now I don't trust it...
Grrr...I just want to...I don't even know, right now I'm just trying to hold it together and doing a lousy job...
why did this have to happen?
Burned.
I'm in a conflict with myself now and I'm losing
now what?
There is a sense of accomplishment to be felt when one cleans, especially if you happen to be as disorganized as me. There is a sweet satisfaction once clutter is removed and everything has it's place. It's as cleasning for the person as it is for the space. While tidying up can be a positive experiance there always has to be set backs...
Reminders...Objects that retain memories and induce thought. Thoughts that hold a presence that take you back to the moment that they were created. Some places good and some places where I don't want to be. These are recounts I don't want to experiance. I want to drown it all out I don't want to remember, I don't want to feel, and I don't want to be here ever again...
It's time to clean up...No more mess, no more emotions, no more clutter. I want to free my mind of everything...
I need strength...I've ignored Text messages, phone calls, and empty apologies, but I am still tormented by memories...Everything needs to go
How could I be so stupid?
I listened to my heart, I followed it and now I don't trust it...
Grrr...I just want to...I don't even know, right now I'm just trying to hold it together and doing a lousy job...
why did this have to happen?
Burned.
I'm in a conflict with myself now and I'm losing
now what?