Running in my head
I should keep better track of everything that's going on. I've never been one of those crazy detailed anal people who have to take note of every single little thing that happens but I don't want to forget the important things either. I've been spending lots of time with Rin the past two months. I know that for sure. And it's been great, just so much fun and fluff and happy.
Oh wow. Did I really say fluff? Man. I'm in some deep ish.
I love her.
Rin.
Love.
Me.
I mean, of course I do. She's my greatest, best friend I ever had. She's so sweet and kind and fun to be around and I know she'll always have my back for anything in the world. But I've been crushing on her for about the same time too, and even though being friends with her's the most important thing in the world to me--
Dammit. He just DIED, come on! It's like I'm stomping on Gai's grave falling for Rin now. Strong as she is she needs a FRIEND more than anything right now even though she's trying to move on. If I HAD to fall for her couldn't it wait until I don't know...NOT a month from the funeral. Gah, this is-- I'm such a crappy friend. It'd be really nice if I could turn off all that other stuff I'm feeling for a while and be 100% super awesome best friend. It'd be so much better for both of us.
Even though I'm more okay not remembering things, there's only so much I can try to think back to on my own. At least now the blank spots are only bugging me and not getting me all lame and emo.
Maybe I should talk to them. Finally. But it's still so weird.
Oh wow. Did I really say fluff? Man. I'm in some deep ish.
I love her.
Rin.
Love.
Me.
I mean, of course I do. She's my greatest, best friend I ever had. She's so sweet and kind and fun to be around and I know she'll always have my back for anything in the world. But I've been crushing on her for about the same time too, and even though being friends with her's the most important thing in the world to me--
Dammit. He just DIED, come on! It's like I'm stomping on Gai's grave falling for Rin now. Strong as she is she needs a FRIEND more than anything right now even though she's trying to move on. If I HAD to fall for her couldn't it wait until I don't know...NOT a month from the funeral. Gah, this is-- I'm such a crappy friend. It'd be really nice if I could turn off all that other stuff I'm feeling for a while and be 100% super awesome best friend. It'd be so much better for both of us.
Even though I'm more okay not remembering things, there's only so much I can try to think back to on my own. At least now the blank spots are only bugging me and not getting me all lame and emo.
Maybe I should talk to them. Finally. But it's still so weird.