Just one of those days...
I just got home about 10 minutes ago... Ugh... today was just uncomfortable... to the extreme...
I went to bed really late last night, talking to people... I need to stop with that. So I didn't shower yesterday, I know, it's gross, but I didn't. This morning, both my alarms went off and turned them off soon after. I went back to bed... I didn't wake up until 7:30. Two minutes later, Sam calls, telling me that she's on her way... so I run to my closet, grab some random shirt, some random old pants, I grabbed some socks, and my shoes... my jacket... put on a hat... brushed me teeth, and just waited outside... So yeah... I didn't match, I was wearing old clothes, since Sam packed my whole closet, literally, into my suitcase for Las Vegas and I never unpacked last night... So whatever... here I am... sitting... today doesn't feel right. I guess I looked sad or depressed... but I wasn't... I was just very thoughtful. It's scary moving on into the unknown, while forcefully pushing away/killing/ or ignoring old, but still strong, feelings. I keep telling myself I'm ready to move on, but I think I'm just bull shitting myself.
I'm so proud of myself... I'm still recovering from the devastation of a month ago... I got a 96/100 on an English Essay, and a 50/50 on an English test... My over all grade in English is almost an A again. Physics is getting there... I'm doing better, and it's SOO close to a B. Trig... ugh... he dropped the Partial Fractions quiz grade for everyone... he just threw them all away... they don't count. I guess the quiz was bogus... So that quiz can't harm my fragile grade... There's still a test he hasn't graded, and I'm sure I didn't do all that great... We have a test and a quiz left in that class, and then a semester exam.... I have to do good. I have no idea how I'm doing in AP Gov/We The People, but I know it's not bad... Oh, and speaking of doing better, I did way good on my SATs! I'm so excited! Holy heLL! I checked online... and woo... I can't believe it myself... That's it... I'm done taking the SATs forever.... I'm done! I'm free! I'm kinda sitting here wondering why I'm shooting so low, ASU or U of A? But oh well, baby steps, Alex... I'll have fun at ASU... But I'm not even sure about ASU anymore... or any school... Now that I've had a lot of time to think... I don't think the University/College path is for me... I think I'm just trying to be like everyone else, just going with the flow.... but I'm thinking it's not me. I think I would be content just going to some trade school and just going into the work force... honestly. I've busted my ass for the past 4 years... and I don't feel like continuing that for what, eight more years? Please... After this whole We the People competition is over this Saturday, I'm going to start looking into local trade schools, try to find something that would interest me... Here's my plan:
-Graduate from Skyline in May
-Take a year or half a year to work and have fun and what not.... just a year/half year to myself... I well deserved vacation...
-Start at some trade school... and work
-Get my own place
-Work... and be happy!
It seems less stressful than going to a University for four years... then four more.... worrying about GPAs, and drama... and what not... If I was muscularly, and athletic, I'd so join the Army.... look at my aunt, she went to the Army for a couple years... she got to see parts of the world and the US, and now she's in the reserves, and gets for working a weekend a month, and aside from that she's going to school to become a dental assistant, and making money... and she's going out and having fun.... Granted, it won't be reaching my full potential... but screw it... I don't plan on supporting a family... so blah! It's all about me :-D
We'll see how things turn out.....
But I'm so tired... I have math homework.... I'm contemplating doing it... I really need a nap... and a shower... but a nap first... mmm ... yeah.... Later guys....
I went to bed really late last night, talking to people... I need to stop with that. So I didn't shower yesterday, I know, it's gross, but I didn't. This morning, both my alarms went off and turned them off soon after. I went back to bed... I didn't wake up until 7:30. Two minutes later, Sam calls, telling me that she's on her way... so I run to my closet, grab some random shirt, some random old pants, I grabbed some socks, and my shoes... my jacket... put on a hat... brushed me teeth, and just waited outside... So yeah... I didn't match, I was wearing old clothes, since Sam packed my whole closet, literally, into my suitcase for Las Vegas and I never unpacked last night... So whatever... here I am... sitting... today doesn't feel right. I guess I looked sad or depressed... but I wasn't... I was just very thoughtful. It's scary moving on into the unknown, while forcefully pushing away/killing/ or ignoring old, but still strong, feelings. I keep telling myself I'm ready to move on, but I think I'm just bull shitting myself.
I'm so proud of myself... I'm still recovering from the devastation of a month ago... I got a 96/100 on an English Essay, and a 50/50 on an English test... My over all grade in English is almost an A again. Physics is getting there... I'm doing better, and it's SOO close to a B. Trig... ugh... he dropped the Partial Fractions quiz grade for everyone... he just threw them all away... they don't count. I guess the quiz was bogus... So that quiz can't harm my fragile grade... There's still a test he hasn't graded, and I'm sure I didn't do all that great... We have a test and a quiz left in that class, and then a semester exam.... I have to do good. I have no idea how I'm doing in AP Gov/We The People, but I know it's not bad... Oh, and speaking of doing better, I did way good on my SATs! I'm so excited! Holy heLL! I checked online... and woo... I can't believe it myself... That's it... I'm done taking the SATs forever.... I'm done! I'm free! I'm kinda sitting here wondering why I'm shooting so low, ASU or U of A? But oh well, baby steps, Alex... I'll have fun at ASU... But I'm not even sure about ASU anymore... or any school... Now that I've had a lot of time to think... I don't think the University/College path is for me... I think I'm just trying to be like everyone else, just going with the flow.... but I'm thinking it's not me. I think I would be content just going to some trade school and just going into the work force... honestly. I've busted my ass for the past 4 years... and I don't feel like continuing that for what, eight more years? Please... After this whole We the People competition is over this Saturday, I'm going to start looking into local trade schools, try to find something that would interest me... Here's my plan:
-Graduate from Skyline in May
-Take a year or half a year to work and have fun and what not.... just a year/half year to myself... I well deserved vacation...
-Start at some trade school... and work
-Get my own place
-Work... and be happy!
It seems less stressful than going to a University for four years... then four more.... worrying about GPAs, and drama... and what not... If I was muscularly, and athletic, I'd so join the Army.... look at my aunt, she went to the Army for a couple years... she got to see parts of the world and the US, and now she's in the reserves, and gets for working a weekend a month, and aside from that she's going to school to become a dental assistant, and making money... and she's going out and having fun.... Granted, it won't be reaching my full potential... but screw it... I don't plan on supporting a family... so blah! It's all about me :-D
We'll see how things turn out.....
But I'm so tired... I have math homework.... I'm contemplating doing it... I really need a nap... and a shower... but a nap first... mmm ... yeah.... Later guys....