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ok so im really excited about dis new journal n da new communities n stuff. but im so nervous cuz im supposed to go out wit dis guy i like dis weekend-just me n him n i know dinner will come up somehow. idk wut to do tho cuz every time i eat my stomach blows up n i look like im pregnant or something. i gotta keep it empty but idk how to make an excuse n how to keep my stomach from growlin while im wit him n stuff.
plus i got dis awful feelin in my stomach cuz im scared i might eat tonite cuz my moms makin homemade pizza (which is always amazin) n her bfs comin over n they will def try to make me eat. plus once i start i cant stop cuz im just so hungry. how do i avoid them?
ive never thrown up my food before. is it hard? idk if id be able to make myself do it n im scared id get caught since my moms already suspicious about me not eatin.
dat boy i was tellin you about invited me to his prom which is in 2 weeks. i just gotta hold out till then so i look good in my dress. im scared to start eating tho cuz its so hard to stop. it feels good to get dis stuff out tho even if no one is reading--but i hope someone is.
-cer
plus i got dis awful feelin in my stomach cuz im scared i might eat tonite cuz my moms makin homemade pizza (which is always amazin) n her bfs comin over n they will def try to make me eat. plus once i start i cant stop cuz im just so hungry. how do i avoid them?
ive never thrown up my food before. is it hard? idk if id be able to make myself do it n im scared id get caught since my moms already suspicious about me not eatin.
dat boy i was tellin you about invited me to his prom which is in 2 weeks. i just gotta hold out till then so i look good in my dress. im scared to start eating tho cuz its so hard to stop. it feels good to get dis stuff out tho even if no one is reading--but i hope someone is.
-cer