Here again
Since I have been journaling more in general, I want to utilize my lj as well. It's easier and quicker to type. I moved to Washington 4.5 months ago to live with Kasy and Ezra. Time flies it would seem. As the time passes, I continue to heal. And there's a lot to heal from. My 1 year being sober from booze is coming up in early August, and that's such a trip. Who would have thought? I never did. It has made a difference in a lot of ways. It held me back and kept me stuck, among other things. So I'm happy, and proud of myself. Therapy is hard, but I know it's changing my thinking. And therefore it should change the way I make decisions in the future. That's a main goal. I've never had this type of therapy before, and it is definitely hard work. But it's worth it already. Hallie's having her baby soon and I wish I could be there. I've been missing CA and SB lately, and it kinda sucks to. I don't have roots here yet, but I will. Getting pretty tired of isolation so I'm beginning to make connections with others. I'm excited to one day have a solid group of friends out here. And speaking of friends - Julli is coming to visit sooooooon, and I can't wait. It's gonna be the best. Soon soon soon. I've started my job hunt and it's pretty stressful. Hate that process. We'll see what I end up landing. I feel less out of place than I did before. Settling into my new life in this new place has not been easy. But I don't know where I would be without my family, and I'm infinitely grateful. Sometimes it's so hard to see the truth. And then once it becomes clear, a lot of other past truths become clear as well. I feel like I'm finally beginning to find comfort within myself, by myself. I just have to keep that going, and I will. Oh yeah and I got my GED. I didn't quite react to that achievement in the way I hoped, but I'm relieved to have it done with and behind me now. It was a long time coming.