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well let's see...first order of business: an intriguing first entry! but what to write about? well, the whole purpose of this new lj is for me to stop being a quiet, shy person and speak my mind. OK then...hmm...
My apartment mates and I just did secret santas. I'm not allowed to tell who it is I got but I have to go shopping this weekend and get her present. Let's see, I know she likes vodka....alot lol.
SO yeah I've just renovated myself completely (electronically anywayz) like if u go see my facebook is completely changed and so has this lj. I would have to say the reason for all this would have to be cuz I discovered something about myself yesterday. I finally realized what everyone was talking about when they said I should grow more balls or be more gutsy. I should. I'm actually kind of tired of being quiet little giselle who is easily interrupted and easily ditched. The reason I'm so quiet I guess is cuz I've developed this fear of sounding out of place or stupid. Well, I'm tired of always acting afraid of what others will think of me and I'm gonna be more open. No one wants to look for an quiet introvert so I wanna act more myself because I know that's not who I am. Forgive me though I have this fear that people won't like me or look at me the same once I begin to be more open but then again, maybe I'm just becoming as outspoken as everyone else I've noticed seems to be. It's not that I don't trust you it's just I'm still getting over that fear of sounding stupid or like an outspoken bitch. Well, I'm learning to swallow that fear up and I'm gonna speak all the time now! It took someone who was too accepting of me to help me know that I wanted to change, and that really helped me want to break free of my timid shell. Oh God someone shoot me I'm beginning to sound Gabe-dramatic.
My apartment mates and I just did secret santas. I'm not allowed to tell who it is I got but I have to go shopping this weekend and get her present. Let's see, I know she likes vodka....alot lol.
SO yeah I've just renovated myself completely (electronically anywayz) like if u go see my facebook is completely changed and so has this lj. I would have to say the reason for all this would have to be cuz I discovered something about myself yesterday. I finally realized what everyone was talking about when they said I should grow more balls or be more gutsy. I should. I'm actually kind of tired of being quiet little giselle who is easily interrupted and easily ditched. The reason I'm so quiet I guess is cuz I've developed this fear of sounding out of place or stupid. Well, I'm tired of always acting afraid of what others will think of me and I'm gonna be more open. No one wants to look for an quiet introvert so I wanna act more myself because I know that's not who I am. Forgive me though I have this fear that people won't like me or look at me the same once I begin to be more open but then again, maybe I'm just becoming as outspoken as everyone else I've noticed seems to be. It's not that I don't trust you it's just I'm still getting over that fear of sounding stupid or like an outspoken bitch. Well, I'm learning to swallow that fear up and I'm gonna speak all the time now! It took someone who was too accepting of me to help me know that I wanted to change, and that really helped me want to break free of my timid shell. Oh God someone shoot me I'm beginning to sound Gabe-dramatic.