Amanda Day
Amanda came over today! Wednesday really is the best day of the week, although it came and went so quickly. Now what sucks is I work tomorrow, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, and I finally have a day off Monday. Of course that won't help if she's not off Monday, and even then, whether we can arrange to see each other. This not having a car thing and having to ask other people is really starting to bother me, and it's taken a HUGE chunk of what I used to call a "life" away. The phone being out right now has taken out any chance for me to hear my sweet Amanda's voice, and she's right: right now, things seem dead-set against us, but I will not falter, and I won't give up, and I will fight and claw my way through to the bitter end for something I believe is MORE than worth it. The whole world could press it's weight down on my shoulders and I would find a way to be with her in the end. She left about 2 and a half hours ago and I've been just missing her so much ever since. Her face, her smile, her eyes, her lips....it's like a part of my soul is gone when she's not around. She probably would still be here now if Nate could have taken her home, but, it couldn't be figured out in time so we couldn't take a chance on something that might or might not have happened. Time is a strange paradox...it just goes and goes faster and faster, especially when you don't want it to, but of course when you want it to pass by quickly, such as when you're working....oh, it just ticks along....pisses me off. One more thing before I pz out....no babies, and thank the heavens!