my heart hurts
Andy and I are no longer Andy and I. We broke up tonight. I'm so exhausted and I don't know what to do. I feel mixed up between shattered and confused. I saw it coming I suppose. He was whining too much about not seeing me. He broke up with me because he can't handle the distance and the emotional rollercoaster I'm putting him through. I know if you have been reading my xanga you are with me, if this is all new news, sorry. I'm going to LSUS this Semester, I'm not longer going to Tech, I think, for good. I miss Tamara most of all... Well I miss Andy too, but now for a completely different reason. I just want to go to sleep, but I'm afraid of actually laying down. Because I have nightmares with everytime something bad like this happens. I'm sure Kev never checks this thing anymore, so I'm, rather, Andy's safe. Because he said he would do bad things to a guy if said guy ever hurt me. I'm not bleeding from the inside too much. We weren't together long enough for me to be mortally wounded. I need sleep. So I'm going to pretend. Maybe I'll get there eventually.