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year 2002, my dearest grandmother who took care of me like a real mother passed away. not a year later, my grandfather who stood as a father to me followed my grandma. i was devastated that time & doesn't want to talk about it. but recently, i've been able to face the fact that they're gone already and was able to talk about my feeling regarding their death openly. well, time heals all wound. i may not be fully recovered about it but maybe one day i might be. the fact that you're alone facing such huge lonely world without the loved one that has always been your support is quite hard but i guess there will come a time that all grief will fade and you will BE ABLE TO TRULY move on without wearing mask: a mask that always says,"i'm ok". and you will even be able to accept that you were devastated by such event without thinking of embarassing yourself.
last month, im having wierd gut feelings & dejavu that someone close to me [someone i know] will die. and that feeling sends chill on my spine, i couldn't hardly breath. believe it or not after a week one {jan. 2, 2009} of my mom's sister died due to complications of diabetes. a few days later {jan. 4, 2009}, my mom's cousin {my aunt in canada} also died for unknown cause. recently, about two days ago, my grandma in canada {my maternal grandma's sister} also died a natural death.i really don't believe in premonitions or dejavu. i'm not sure if i have to consider that my feelings last month that someone close to me will die is a premonition. whatever it is, one thing is for sure. death is like a thief. you can never tell when will it come. the sad thing is, theose people who wants to rest in peace, wasn't able to do so. and so as those people who wants to stay alive has no power to do it so.
And I looked, and behold a pale horse:
and his name that sat on him was Death.
Revelation 6:8
Life does not cease to be funny when people die...
any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.
George Bernard Shaw
He tries Death. And Death rejects him also....
AISHITERU___by kourin
ost: zoku natsume yuujinchou
guess this song is nice and quite suited for this entry...
KANJI
ne mai sukoshi dake, mou sukoshidake kiiteite hoshii,
ne mai sukoshi dake, mou sukoshidake wagamama ii desuka.
te ni ireta totan ni kieteshimai sou
kotoba wo kuremasenka?
anata ga iru sore dake demo,
sekai ga kamatteshimau.
monotono no keshiki ga hora,
azayaka ni utsuru.
itsunomanika hanareteita,
te wo tsunaide aruiteku
"umaku wa geseteiru ka na?",
ano sora na kiite miru no...
ROMAJI
HEY, JUST A LITTLE LONGER, I JUST WANT YOU TO LISTEN A LITTLE LONGER,
HEY JUST A LITTLE LONGER, I WANT TO BE SELFISH JUST A LITTLE LONGER.
THE MOMENT IT WAS IN MY HAND, IT SEEMED LIKE IT WOULD DISAPPEAR.
SO COULD YOU SAY SOMETHING?
WITH JUST YOU HERE,
MY WORLD HAS CHANGED.
JUST LOOK AT THE MONOTONOUS SCENERY,
IT LOOKS SO VIVID.
WE ARE WALKING WITH OUR HANDS HELD,
AND BEFORE WE KNEW IT, WE HAD TO SEPARATE.
"DO YOU THINK WE'RE A GOOD MATCH?",
WAS WHAT I ASKED THE SKY....
last month, im having wierd gut feelings & dejavu that someone close to me [someone i know] will die. and that feeling sends chill on my spine, i couldn't hardly breath. believe it or not after a week one {jan. 2, 2009} of my mom's sister died due to complications of diabetes. a few days later {jan. 4, 2009}, my mom's cousin {my aunt in canada} also died for unknown cause. recently, about two days ago, my grandma in canada {my maternal grandma's sister} also died a natural death.i really don't believe in premonitions or dejavu. i'm not sure if i have to consider that my feelings last month that someone close to me will die is a premonition. whatever it is, one thing is for sure. death is like a thief. you can never tell when will it come. the sad thing is, theose people who wants to rest in peace, wasn't able to do so. and so as those people who wants to stay alive has no power to do it so.
And I looked, and behold a pale horse:
and his name that sat on him was Death.
Revelation 6:8
Life does not cease to be funny when people die...
any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.
George Bernard Shaw
He tries Death. And Death rejects him also....
AISHITERU___by kourin
ost: zoku natsume yuujinchou
guess this song is nice and quite suited for this entry...
KANJI
ne mai sukoshi dake, mou sukoshidake kiiteite hoshii,
ne mai sukoshi dake, mou sukoshidake wagamama ii desuka.
te ni ireta totan ni kieteshimai sou
kotoba wo kuremasenka?
anata ga iru sore dake demo,
sekai ga kamatteshimau.
monotono no keshiki ga hora,
azayaka ni utsuru.
itsunomanika hanareteita,
te wo tsunaide aruiteku
"umaku wa geseteiru ka na?",
ano sora na kiite miru no...
ROMAJI
HEY, JUST A LITTLE LONGER, I JUST WANT YOU TO LISTEN A LITTLE LONGER,
HEY JUST A LITTLE LONGER, I WANT TO BE SELFISH JUST A LITTLE LONGER.
THE MOMENT IT WAS IN MY HAND, IT SEEMED LIKE IT WOULD DISAPPEAR.
SO COULD YOU SAY SOMETHING?
WITH JUST YOU HERE,
MY WORLD HAS CHANGED.
JUST LOOK AT THE MONOTONOUS SCENERY,
IT LOOKS SO VIVID.
WE ARE WALKING WITH OUR HANDS HELD,
AND BEFORE WE KNEW IT, WE HAD TO SEPARATE.
"DO YOU THINK WE'RE A GOOD MATCH?",
WAS WHAT I ASKED THE SKY....