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wow...life sure does have a cruel way of catching up to you. I blame it on "life" because...I guess to keep from putting the blame on myself, where it probably really belongs.
Right when you think it's okay to get your hopes up...and you finally become comfortable with falling for someone...and you think everything is going your way...
that's when everything decides to fall apart...and nothing you can do will ever be right.
or maybe it just wasn't meant to be...I guess it was too good to be true...
but damn, I thought it felt real. I guess our differences caught up with us...in fact, they suffocated us. I wish more than anything that things could have been different...but then again...when one door closes, another one opens, right?
time to get my shit straight. I fucked up in school my first semester...so now I know what I need to do differently next semester...hint #1: go to class. haha, now that I have that down...second thing I need to fix...I have 2 jobs...hint #2: go to them.
I guess my biggest problem is slacking...time to wake up. I'm taking care of my responsibilities, but I need to do more than that.
soooooo...now that I'm going to get school and work straight...my plan is to...MOVE...I need to move. I want to move soon...but I know the smarter plan would be to wait until my lease is up...but I don't know, we'll see what happens.
and then..........buy a new vehicle. that sounds like a great idea. jeep wrangler sound good to anyone? does to me. or maybe V will feel generous this xmas and just give me her car! haha, yeah right.
man...I still can't believe things fell apart so fast...but then again, everything with her happened so fast. I was stupid. It hurts...and maybe I deserve it...but I guess all I can do now is learn from it.
hint 3: stay away from older girls.
scratch that...stay away from girls period.
so i'll just do what I said I was doing before she came along...I'll work to get to where I want to be, that way when the right girl does come along...I'll hopefully be everything she needs.
I wasn't in a rush for anything serious before...but I fell for her so quick. I thought it was okay...because I thought she felt the same. At least that's what she said. But I guess certain situations can cause a change of heart. Understandable.
doesn't make it feel any better though.
Right when you think it's okay to get your hopes up...and you finally become comfortable with falling for someone...and you think everything is going your way...
that's when everything decides to fall apart...and nothing you can do will ever be right.
or maybe it just wasn't meant to be...I guess it was too good to be true...
but damn, I thought it felt real. I guess our differences caught up with us...in fact, they suffocated us. I wish more than anything that things could have been different...but then again...when one door closes, another one opens, right?
time to get my shit straight. I fucked up in school my first semester...so now I know what I need to do differently next semester...hint #1: go to class. haha, now that I have that down...second thing I need to fix...I have 2 jobs...hint #2: go to them.
I guess my biggest problem is slacking...time to wake up. I'm taking care of my responsibilities, but I need to do more than that.
soooooo...now that I'm going to get school and work straight...my plan is to...MOVE...I need to move. I want to move soon...but I know the smarter plan would be to wait until my lease is up...but I don't know, we'll see what happens.
and then..........buy a new vehicle. that sounds like a great idea. jeep wrangler sound good to anyone? does to me. or maybe V will feel generous this xmas and just give me her car! haha, yeah right.
man...I still can't believe things fell apart so fast...but then again, everything with her happened so fast. I was stupid. It hurts...and maybe I deserve it...but I guess all I can do now is learn from it.
hint 3: stay away from older girls.
scratch that...stay away from girls period.
so i'll just do what I said I was doing before she came along...I'll work to get to where I want to be, that way when the right girl does come along...I'll hopefully be everything she needs.
I wasn't in a rush for anything serious before...but I fell for her so quick. I thought it was okay...because I thought she felt the same. At least that's what she said. But I guess certain situations can cause a change of heart. Understandable.
doesn't make it feel any better though.