Clarity
I was talking to my uncle about "things" the other night, he is so incredibly inteligent he makes Lincoln look like a kindergardener (but Lincoln will, with absolute certainty,grow into my uncle). Anyways the point was to fuck other people and do things for your self to make your life yours and happy. Like your parents for instance, yeah they love you or whatever but doing things in your life for them is completly retarted. Like my thinking that marraige was something that I had to do as a result of me dating Aaron so long. I had pressure to either break up with him or get married because people would think we were screwing, Oh My Gosh! But then I realized that me of all people doesn't need to be married, at least for a long time, I don't beleive in it and I would only be doing it for the family. And with all of that sick pressure subsiding I feel so much better. So, my life is going to be mine. I cain't even tell you how uplifting this all is to me. I do care about other people's feelings but not enough to uproot my dreams or settle for something that I don't want, I am free and I want to have fun. Let's have a house party!!!