Mad at the world.
I'm in a bad mood today. I'm tired of being sick. I'm tired of not being able to feel the tips of my fingers. I hate my feet being numb. I hate all this pain I'm in. I want it to all end. I want it to go away.
No, I'm not suicidal. How do I know? I read the info on the Prozac and it said that one of the side effects could be increased suicidal tendencies. Seeing as how I wasn't suicidal before, I now ask myself every morning "Do you want to kill yourself today?" I feel that as long as I keep answering "Nope, I'm good" then I don't have any side effects. LOL
I just had a bad morning, pain wise. It's improved this afternoon, but I'm just not in a good place right now.
My left knee/leg is where just about all my issues are. Last night and this morning I started having pain in my right knee. I got to thinking, "What the heck am I gonna do if I have TWO bad knees?"
The pain has dismayed me, also. My fingertips don't do what I want them to do. It's hard for me to even write a letter to a friend. When I type, I know what letters and keys I want to hit, but that's not what happens. A lot of the time I'm hitting backspace to re-type stuff. I have to take breaks from everything.
I'm just down today. It could be the weather. We've been having some VERY cold nights here. Yesterday morning it was only 39, but it got up to 62. Today it was 48 and it's gotten up to 73.
I'll be okay. I just needed to vent.
No, I'm not suicidal. How do I know? I read the info on the Prozac and it said that one of the side effects could be increased suicidal tendencies. Seeing as how I wasn't suicidal before, I now ask myself every morning "Do you want to kill yourself today?" I feel that as long as I keep answering "Nope, I'm good" then I don't have any side effects. LOL
I just had a bad morning, pain wise. It's improved this afternoon, but I'm just not in a good place right now.
My left knee/leg is where just about all my issues are. Last night and this morning I started having pain in my right knee. I got to thinking, "What the heck am I gonna do if I have TWO bad knees?"
The pain has dismayed me, also. My fingertips don't do what I want them to do. It's hard for me to even write a letter to a friend. When I type, I know what letters and keys I want to hit, but that's not what happens. A lot of the time I'm hitting backspace to re-type stuff. I have to take breaks from everything.
I'm just down today. It could be the weather. We've been having some VERY cold nights here. Yesterday morning it was only 39, but it got up to 62. Today it was 48 and it's gotten up to 73.
I'll be okay. I just needed to vent.