at odds with its odd offerings
right so my sister's boyfriend just dropped off a really thoughtful present and a letter that says on the outside "open alone" and i pretended to try to steal it out of her hands and my mom told me to stop. and i, kidding, said "aw but i want someone to write me a letter that says open alone" and my mom comes up and puts her arm around me and was like "don't worry, someone will. most of us aren't so lucky to find a nice boy at age 15. most boys are jerks till they're 30." and i just kind of looked at her and then muttered "well it's irrevelant anyway" and went upstairs.
OK. i did NOT mean that no one has ever written me a letter that other people can't see, clearly. does she think i'm that undesirable that as a college freshman i would never have had anything resembling dating? or never had anyone have a crush on me? and clearly i am NOT holding out for a nice boy to turn 30 and write me love letters WRONG WRONG WRONG HOW MANY TIMES TO I HAVE TO EMPHASIZE IT DAMMIT I'M GAY. and it's not like i'm just gay and otherwise completely virginal, WRONG THERE TOO. i cant believe she's deluded herself into thinking that i'm just waiting for a nice boy. do they think they would know about it if i was dating someone? do they think i'd want to put myself through telling them? and i will, eventually, but do they think i would have already? WHY DONT THEY GET IT. I MADE IT PERFECTLY CLEAR.
i guess i'll just wear all the dyke shit i have every day for the fucking rest of my life until they stop talkign about fucking boys.
OK. i did NOT mean that no one has ever written me a letter that other people can't see, clearly. does she think i'm that undesirable that as a college freshman i would never have had anything resembling dating? or never had anyone have a crush on me? and clearly i am NOT holding out for a nice boy to turn 30 and write me love letters WRONG WRONG WRONG HOW MANY TIMES TO I HAVE TO EMPHASIZE IT DAMMIT I'M GAY. and it's not like i'm just gay and otherwise completely virginal, WRONG THERE TOO. i cant believe she's deluded herself into thinking that i'm just waiting for a nice boy. do they think they would know about it if i was dating someone? do they think i'd want to put myself through telling them? and i will, eventually, but do they think i would have already? WHY DONT THEY GET IT. I MADE IT PERFECTLY CLEAR.
i guess i'll just wear all the dyke shit i have every day for the fucking rest of my life until they stop talkign about fucking boys.