i'm not half of what i wish i was
"i'm not what's missing
from your life now
i could never be the puzzle pieces
they say that god makes problems
just to see what you can stand
before you do as the devil pleases
give up the thing you love"
I'm always sad on rainy days. Reading Empress of the World made it worse - it was cute but that part at the end is just so sad because there is no way to get over it or to go away from it and it'll never be the same and it'll never be okay.
i think about dan nurick every time i drive past his house, especially right now. but i didn't realize until last night that i hooked up with dan after my parents said i couldn't put my story in the literary magazine. it's like in the movie Camp when michael says he slept with D to see if he could and now all he knows is that if he gets beaten up one too many times he might go marry some woman just because now he knows he can. and he wishes he didn't know that. and i can relate, not with nurick but in general. and i know grudges are bad but i don't think i'll ever forgive my parents for that literary magazine thing.
"if you get a feeling
next time you see me
do me a favor
and let me know
cuz it's hard to tell
it's hard to say
oh well, okay"
-elliot smith
from your life now
i could never be the puzzle pieces
they say that god makes problems
just to see what you can stand
before you do as the devil pleases
give up the thing you love"
I'm always sad on rainy days. Reading Empress of the World made it worse - it was cute but that part at the end is just so sad because there is no way to get over it or to go away from it and it'll never be the same and it'll never be okay.
i think about dan nurick every time i drive past his house, especially right now. but i didn't realize until last night that i hooked up with dan after my parents said i couldn't put my story in the literary magazine. it's like in the movie Camp when michael says he slept with D to see if he could and now all he knows is that if he gets beaten up one too many times he might go marry some woman just because now he knows he can. and he wishes he didn't know that. and i can relate, not with nurick but in general. and i know grudges are bad but i don't think i'll ever forgive my parents for that literary magazine thing.
"if you get a feeling
next time you see me
do me a favor
and let me know
cuz it's hard to tell
it's hard to say
oh well, okay"
-elliot smith