Numb
Numb...that is the only way to discribe it
these past few weeks have been very intense...when things were finally looking up two days of hell hit.
-you know who you are:
things with you are like a rollercoster ride...up and down and lately more down then up
i want so bad to be mad at you, to yell and scream and tell you how i feel...
i want to scream i hate you, that you make me feel like a failure, and ask if you really love me...
but i can't...
i don't hate you and i never will no matter what you do, what mistakes you make...i will always love u, even if i can't always show it. You have given me so much in life...don't think that one mistake makes me think any different of you.
this is hard for everyone, and i don't really know what im feeling...all i know is that it will take time for me to heal, but i will eventually. When i think about it, maybe this was suppose to happen, show you that you need to change becasue god knows that you wouldn't listen to anyone if they told you to stop...
this is a turning point and that is the way im going to try and look at it and i hope you will too...
mistakes are inevitable in life, everyone makes them and you have no way of stoping them...its what you learn from them that is the really test, you can make it a positive or a negative...please make this on a POSITIVE, not only for you...but for everyone!
i love you and i forgive you
these past few weeks have been very intense...when things were finally looking up two days of hell hit.
-you know who you are:
things with you are like a rollercoster ride...up and down and lately more down then up
i want so bad to be mad at you, to yell and scream and tell you how i feel...
i want to scream i hate you, that you make me feel like a failure, and ask if you really love me...
but i can't...
i don't hate you and i never will no matter what you do, what mistakes you make...i will always love u, even if i can't always show it. You have given me so much in life...don't think that one mistake makes me think any different of you.
this is hard for everyone, and i don't really know what im feeling...all i know is that it will take time for me to heal, but i will eventually. When i think about it, maybe this was suppose to happen, show you that you need to change becasue god knows that you wouldn't listen to anyone if they told you to stop...
this is a turning point and that is the way im going to try and look at it and i hope you will too...
mistakes are inevitable in life, everyone makes them and you have no way of stoping them...its what you learn from them that is the really test, you can make it a positive or a negative...please make this on a POSITIVE, not only for you...but for everyone!
i love you and i forgive you