reflection time.
here's a little story that must be told
and i goes a little something like this.
just because my world revolves around me sometimes...
this morning i woke up for school
and got ready as usual, dryed my hair,
messed with it a little and left.
well this morning my hair had amazing
texture to it and it was just well lovely.
and then i got to school and it rains.
and of course my hair is not straight,
thankyou rain for messing it up.
oh well. a few people said it looked cute.
and i sort of agree.
if it was a little wavier all the way around,
it would have.
but of course the rain isnt that nice.
no, no its not.
but on a side note, the rain did make me happy.
its so beautiful.
gives me the urge to go buy a coffee
and sit in the coffee place
and just stare out the window
and watch the rain pour down
and just let my mind wander aimlessley
and think about whatever it wants to.
rain is peaceful. but not for my hair.
everyone has their problems,
everyone has their insecurities.
at no point in time is any one ever
allowed to judge you and
how much amount of hurt is
really valid with your problems.
what im trying to say is no one
is allowed to compare your problems
and say that "oh it cant be that bad"
you dont need to complain about it.
honestly it really does make me mad
when people react that way.
yes i understand that other people around
me may have it worse than me but i havent
been to that point yet, and so what is going
on in my life may be my point of breakdown.
the friday that started out valentines day
weekend was definetly a different day.
my brother andrew, moved out
and moved away to texas.
i kissed him goodbye while
he was sleeping before i left for school
he told me he loved and say goodbye as well.
as his little sister it is definetly
hard to see leave and start a new life.
although i am happy for him because he
is doing what he wants it is really
hard to deal with the family aspect of it.
seeing my mom cope with him leaving is really
hard. my dad doesnt show it as much, but it is
there and i think its hard for me to see that
because it's the little things that make it obvious.
its hard to walk by his room, see it empty and not
miss him.
when they packed up his things
and moved him to texas
i was on a retreat for confirmation.
it was a fun weekend and i learned a lot.
about other people, and who i am.
it was nice.
met new people who opened my eyes to different
things and i am grateful that i am open to
and able to participate in such oppurtunities.
i would like to say that
i am so happy with you
and the role you play
in my life right now.
its such a great accomplishment
to be able to be best friends with
the one you adore so much and to
grow with that person everyday
im honored to be a part of your life
and to be able to talk to you about
anything and everything, to let
let my tears fall in front of you,
to be able to be open about anything
and break all barriers that i may be
hiding from. i dont know what i would
do if you werent who you are to me.
i could go on forever about you.
in other news. i love aimee.
we rock it to the maxxxx.
brad, as much as you would like
to think it was for you..
it really wasnt sorry.
and stop whipping it out for jamie.
goof balls. just have sex already.
oh wait you cant. shes my slut.
the end.
and i goes a little something like this.
just because my world revolves around me sometimes...
this morning i woke up for school
and got ready as usual, dryed my hair,
messed with it a little and left.
well this morning my hair had amazing
texture to it and it was just well lovely.
and then i got to school and it rains.
and of course my hair is not straight,
thankyou rain for messing it up.
oh well. a few people said it looked cute.
and i sort of agree.
if it was a little wavier all the way around,
it would have.
but of course the rain isnt that nice.
no, no its not.
but on a side note, the rain did make me happy.
its so beautiful.
gives me the urge to go buy a coffee
and sit in the coffee place
and just stare out the window
and watch the rain pour down
and just let my mind wander aimlessley
and think about whatever it wants to.
rain is peaceful. but not for my hair.
everyone has their problems,
everyone has their insecurities.
at no point in time is any one ever
allowed to judge you and
how much amount of hurt is
really valid with your problems.
what im trying to say is no one
is allowed to compare your problems
and say that "oh it cant be that bad"
you dont need to complain about it.
honestly it really does make me mad
when people react that way.
yes i understand that other people around
me may have it worse than me but i havent
been to that point yet, and so what is going
on in my life may be my point of breakdown.
the friday that started out valentines day
weekend was definetly a different day.
my brother andrew, moved out
and moved away to texas.
i kissed him goodbye while
he was sleeping before i left for school
he told me he loved and say goodbye as well.
as his little sister it is definetly
hard to see leave and start a new life.
although i am happy for him because he
is doing what he wants it is really
hard to deal with the family aspect of it.
seeing my mom cope with him leaving is really
hard. my dad doesnt show it as much, but it is
there and i think its hard for me to see that
because it's the little things that make it obvious.
its hard to walk by his room, see it empty and not
miss him.
when they packed up his things
and moved him to texas
i was on a retreat for confirmation.
it was a fun weekend and i learned a lot.
about other people, and who i am.
it was nice.
met new people who opened my eyes to different
things and i am grateful that i am open to
and able to participate in such oppurtunities.
i would like to say that
i am so happy with you
and the role you play
in my life right now.
its such a great accomplishment
to be able to be best friends with
the one you adore so much and to
grow with that person everyday
im honored to be a part of your life
and to be able to talk to you about
anything and everything, to let
let my tears fall in front of you,
to be able to be open about anything
and break all barriers that i may be
hiding from. i dont know what i would
do if you werent who you are to me.
i could go on forever about you.
in other news. i love aimee.
we rock it to the maxxxx.
brad, as much as you would like
to think it was for you..
it really wasnt sorry.
and stop whipping it out for jamie.
goof balls. just have sex already.
oh wait you cant. shes my slut.
the end.