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today was boring. I worked g=from 11-5. I was in "the cave" all day. I hate it back there. the only good thing is that i can get away with talking on my phone and text messaging. When i got home from work i was so bored that i acctually thought about calling kenny to see if he wanted to hang out. I really need my license. Then iwouldnt have to resort to that. Chelsea called me and told me that kenny was goin over 2 her house 2morrow and so i called him 2 c if i could hitch a ride. He wasnt home but i talked 2 his older brother for a few minutes while they got high and begged me to come over. I would but i dont want to come home like that again. I've already been through that and i dont want to go through it again. But i have been smokin a little here and there latley. Sice i've started drinking more its comming out. Dont tell Richard though. I think he is too but im not sure yet so i dont wanna say anything to him about it. I dont know about him. One minute we're getting along fine and the next he's tellin me "he doesnt know if he wants to go out with me anymore but he doesnt wanna break up with me cuz he'll just go right out with some one else and he doesnt wanna lose me" but thats fair...right? I was like OMFG!!! you have to be kidding me. He needs to find out what he wants real quick here or our three years that he doesnt wanna lose r gonna be tossed out the window REAL fast! He hangs out with becky all the time and she's a whore and he knows it. Thank God she's goin away to college at the end of the summer. If we even last that long. But who knows, love does unexpected things, doesnt it? Isn't that how i ened up woth him in the first place? IDK. Take life as it's given to ya, right? Well thats what im gonna do. And hold on, REAL TIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!