i feel so empty

Mar 13, 2005 13:47

                        every time Richard  sayz he's commin over n he doesnt it makes me feel so empty. I'm not really mad b/c i didnt really expect him 2 come over but then again, i am mad at him. I dont really know what to think. What should i think? I love him, every 1 knows that. Im not 1 to go out w/sum 1 for longer than 3 months, let alone almost 3 years. So i have to love him. I love him because he makes me laugh. He makes me laugh even when i'm crying. I can be so mad at him and as soon as i talk to him or see him again it just goes away. I love to spend time with him. When we're together i dont want it to end. I know that soundz cheese but i dont. Talkin on the fone is ok but i <3 2 spend time with him. I love him because he knows me better than i know myself. and i know him the same way. He pays attention to the smallest things. all i have to do is look at him and he knows exactly what im thinking, wheather it b good or bad, he knows. He can tell by the sound of my voice if im crying, or if i've had a bad day. and i can tell by the way he answers the fone if he's had a bad day or a good day. He treats me the same in front of his friends as he does alone (except for those special times :) ) Money doesnt matter. I dont care if he buyz me things, even though somtimes it IS nice, but it doesnt matter. For holidays i daont care if he get me a present, him being there with me is the best present he could give me. I know that i love him because while i'm writing this im starting to cry thinking about everything we've been through. The first summer we were together, I've spent every holiday since i moved up here with him (even christmas) he's apart of my family. even my little cousin who's 3 knows him when he walks through the door! " Z'at Witchad? " Every 1 n my house knows when he's comming down the street cuz he's "bumpin n his trunkin". My ENTIRE school knows who im dating and what school he goes 2! We're Amanda and Richard, not just Amanda, or Richard. We go together. We are together. I love him because of all these things and i feel so empty when he doesnt come over when he sayz he's going to.
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