i can breathe.....so surreal
As if a weight as been lifted off my shoulders. Much more so than I would have anticipated giving my current stress factors. So now I get to see whether or not history will repeat or this is a move in the right direction.
I write in code using lots of words but don't say anything. This has been pointed out a number of times as people try to get to know me. It's hard getting to know me I'm broken and working on it. Just is what it is.
Progress was made (at least in my mind, on my end) in a relationship and that makes me smile. And while I'm now wanting to see if same thing happens that happened last time I felt all happy good about a conversation.....I'm not all glass half empty.
Last time I felt all progress made and really good about a conversation I was informed a few days later that on the other person's end it was very much not so and I was shut out/down and have been falling ever since.
I love my livejournal. I feel safe here, wanted, understood. Something rare for me.
And now I sleep
I write in code using lots of words but don't say anything. This has been pointed out a number of times as people try to get to know me. It's hard getting to know me I'm broken and working on it. Just is what it is.
Progress was made (at least in my mind, on my end) in a relationship and that makes me smile. And while I'm now wanting to see if same thing happens that happened last time I felt all happy good about a conversation.....I'm not all glass half empty.
Last time I felt all progress made and really good about a conversation I was informed a few days later that on the other person's end it was very much not so and I was shut out/down and have been falling ever since.
I love my livejournal. I feel safe here, wanted, understood. Something rare for me.
And now I sleep