what is wrong with me?
I'm so tired. I always get like this when I visit my family in Florida. I get so tired I never sleep this much and my mom gets all "you're always tired" and I feel bad. I want to wake up. I'm not even taking my sleep meds but this is just stupid.
Granted I did *not* have a good time growing up here. I'm normally not at all close with my family but since having Quinton I don't want my issues with them to reflect his relationship with them so I'm trying to come home more often and stay long. Usually I come home 1x a year staying 2 days around Christmas sometimes.
I want to get to know my brothers, and I want to attempt to spend time with my mom she's planned all these things for us to do. Today I had to skip out of going to the Gold Head State Park or whatever it is to sleep. I slept 3 hours and woke up but I cannot stop yawning. I had a good night's sleep last night I don't get it.
Annoyed with myself I did this Christmas before last I slept so much the first week I barely got to hang out or do anything with anybody. Is it stress, my depression, or past memories that I can't remember ( I have a good chunk of childhood that is blocked off I don't remember ) what the hell is wrong with me?
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Granted I did *not* have a good time growing up here. I'm normally not at all close with my family but since having Quinton I don't want my issues with them to reflect his relationship with them so I'm trying to come home more often and stay long. Usually I come home 1x a year staying 2 days around Christmas sometimes.
I want to get to know my brothers, and I want to attempt to spend time with my mom she's planned all these things for us to do. Today I had to skip out of going to the Gold Head State Park or whatever it is to sleep. I slept 3 hours and woke up but I cannot stop yawning. I had a good night's sleep last night I don't get it.
Annoyed with myself I did this Christmas before last I slept so much the first week I barely got to hang out or do anything with anybody. Is it stress, my depression, or past memories that I can't remember ( I have a good chunk of childhood that is blocked off I don't remember ) what the hell is wrong with me?
x-posted to borderline community