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I'm sitting in Atlanta airport, waiting for my flight to JAX to leave in an hr. It's been a rather trying week, for reasons that should be obvious to anyone who I talk to and not worth repeating for anyone I don’t.
My parents’ town has a depressing quality that sort of wears on you the longer you stay. Maybe it’s different when you actually live there, but I’m pretty that it’s not. Matt seems to be stuck in the hopelessness there. In addition to all the other matters, Tom and I spent some time discussing how to force him out of the town and to move on to something else in life. He’s looking at the Coast Guard (and seems to be leaning towards it, for reasons I’m still not sure of…), or maybe towards living with me and going to college, or living with Tom and finding work out there.
On the other hand, there are really only about 5 things to do in Johnstown: Eat, drink, sleep, work and fuck. I’d imagine that Matt is probably happy with his life now (I’m still not sure of whether I’d actually encourage him to leave now ;) ), but at some point he’ll either a) resign him self to a life stuck in Johnstown or b) want to do something more, wish he was better-equipped for it, and resign himself to a life stuck in Johnstown.
Not that I can really blame him at this point….I’ve spent most of my time this week either being pissed at the unfairness of life or wanting to be brutally indulgent in forgetting what is going on. Unfortunately, there is the obvious lack of a person (or people (!!!!) ) to indulge with. Oh well…
I got to see a good portion of my extended family, some of whom I haven’t seen in quite a while, so that was nice despite the circumstance. Of course, I’ll be up again in a couple weeks for the wedding, so I’ll get to see them again….something to look forward to. Seeing as how many members of my extended family are of “the marryin’ age”, talk inevitably turns to new relationships, old relationships, and when everyone is finally getting married and/or having kids. Sometimes I feel left behind……but then I realize I’m somewhere in the middle of the pack, between the married, to-be-married, not-yet-engaged, and completely single. My mom asked if I’m ever going to get married (and then of course, moving quickly to having kids). I think having kids part is the easy part….plenty of people do it, often by accident. Marriage seems to be the bigger challenge, and it’s nice to still talk to people who know the pressure and still feel unconcerned. It’ll happen someday, I’m sure…….just not sure when. I’m surprised I didn’t end up proposing to someone this week just to let off the pressure, but it appears I’ve managed to survive for now.
My parents’ town has a depressing quality that sort of wears on you the longer you stay. Maybe it’s different when you actually live there, but I’m pretty that it’s not. Matt seems to be stuck in the hopelessness there. In addition to all the other matters, Tom and I spent some time discussing how to force him out of the town and to move on to something else in life. He’s looking at the Coast Guard (and seems to be leaning towards it, for reasons I’m still not sure of…), or maybe towards living with me and going to college, or living with Tom and finding work out there.
On the other hand, there are really only about 5 things to do in Johnstown: Eat, drink, sleep, work and fuck. I’d imagine that Matt is probably happy with his life now (I’m still not sure of whether I’d actually encourage him to leave now ;) ), but at some point he’ll either a) resign him self to a life stuck in Johnstown or b) want to do something more, wish he was better-equipped for it, and resign himself to a life stuck in Johnstown.
Not that I can really blame him at this point….I’ve spent most of my time this week either being pissed at the unfairness of life or wanting to be brutally indulgent in forgetting what is going on. Unfortunately, there is the obvious lack of a person (or people (!!!!) ) to indulge with. Oh well…
I got to see a good portion of my extended family, some of whom I haven’t seen in quite a while, so that was nice despite the circumstance. Of course, I’ll be up again in a couple weeks for the wedding, so I’ll get to see them again….something to look forward to. Seeing as how many members of my extended family are of “the marryin’ age”, talk inevitably turns to new relationships, old relationships, and when everyone is finally getting married and/or having kids. Sometimes I feel left behind……but then I realize I’m somewhere in the middle of the pack, between the married, to-be-married, not-yet-engaged, and completely single. My mom asked if I’m ever going to get married (and then of course, moving quickly to having kids). I think having kids part is the easy part….plenty of people do it, often by accident. Marriage seems to be the bigger challenge, and it’s nice to still talk to people who know the pressure and still feel unconcerned. It’ll happen someday, I’m sure…….just not sure when. I’m surprised I didn’t end up proposing to someone this week just to let off the pressure, but it appears I’ve managed to survive for now.