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I keep forgetting that I am indeed a socially awkward individual, and it is hard for me to talk to people right away. Thankfully, I've already made a good friend, I think, and I have one or two aquaintences, but I don't really know anyone else in the program. Already everyone seems to have found their social niche, like some beautifully fit puzzle piece, and I have no idea what to do with these oddly shaped edges and frayed tips.
I'm getting better at talking to people than I was in undergrad or high school, but especially in an entirely new geographical region I feel so damn odd, even if I'm really not, and it's just my bloated, neurotic self perception of the situation.
God help me when I have to learn to shmooze to make professional contacts and "network". Some other person will come up to me asking about my research and I'll start blurting out nonsensical sentances feeling very much like Miss Teen South Carolina 2007. I'll say something about gender issues or regressions and then I'll throw in phrases like "ham sandwich" or "disconjointed Pan-Asian-North Manchester fusion nosehairs" and end up walking away bewildered looking like Charlie Chaplin.
I'm getting better at talking to people than I was in undergrad or high school, but especially in an entirely new geographical region I feel so damn odd, even if I'm really not, and it's just my bloated, neurotic self perception of the situation.
God help me when I have to learn to shmooze to make professional contacts and "network". Some other person will come up to me asking about my research and I'll start blurting out nonsensical sentances feeling very much like Miss Teen South Carolina 2007. I'll say something about gender issues or regressions and then I'll throw in phrases like "ham sandwich" or "disconjointed Pan-Asian-North Manchester fusion nosehairs" and end up walking away bewildered looking like Charlie Chaplin.