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I was in NY for the last couple days helping out my aunt. AKA watching my cousins and helped clean the house. They left for vacation this morning so I'm home now.
I also found out something the other day that hurt me. My heart pretty much dropped when I found out about it. I cant complain though, I did screw up really badly and I'm sorry to any of you that I hurt or disappointed by my stupid action.
I was thinking about it alot yesterday. Well, I couldnt stop thinking about it. It was soooo hard to not to, but I talked to my aunt about it for a while and felt a little better. I guess I just came to the conclusion that I can never change the past and that I guess it was never meant to be. But I also was wondering why I had to be told this yesterday since I was coming home this afternoon. I know that they wanted to let me know and I know I would have wanted to know so I didnt make another ass out of myself. But I guess they could have waited so I was at least in the same state as you all when I found out.
I dont know what to do anymore. In a way I cant wait until August so I can get away from all of this and start over and not have to think about the icky things.
I also found out something the other day that hurt me. My heart pretty much dropped when I found out about it. I cant complain though, I did screw up really badly and I'm sorry to any of you that I hurt or disappointed by my stupid action.
I was thinking about it alot yesterday. Well, I couldnt stop thinking about it. It was soooo hard to not to, but I talked to my aunt about it for a while and felt a little better. I guess I just came to the conclusion that I can never change the past and that I guess it was never meant to be. But I also was wondering why I had to be told this yesterday since I was coming home this afternoon. I know that they wanted to let me know and I know I would have wanted to know so I didnt make another ass out of myself. But I guess they could have waited so I was at least in the same state as you all when I found out.
I dont know what to do anymore. In a way I cant wait until August so I can get away from all of this and start over and not have to think about the icky things.