Only 2 more weeks of living in Virginia
2 more weeks. I leave on Saturday the 30th. It's insane. It's all I can think about. I can't stop thinking about finding new things in Raleigh. I can't stop thinking about the few things here that I do NOT want to leave.
I am excited, though. I could be more excited. I know it's what I need, but there are just some factors that terrify me. Some that I still have zero faith in. Some that I'm really looking forward to. Life is never easy for me, just like it's never easy for anyone else. I'm basically tired of running and chasing and wanting. I just want to get to a place where I can be comfortable and content and not scared. And literally, I'm hoping that's Raleigh. Metaphorically, I have no clue where that place is. I have an idea, and it's not where you'd assume.
The more I realize how close I am to the people I work with, the more I realize how hard it's going to be when I get to the new store. We have such a mix of people working at The Noble, and while some of the people there I want to murder their faces, most of them don't get on my nerves. I'm going to miss the shared laughter and in-jokes. I also realize that will all (hopefully) come in time in Durham. Maybe I won't catch as much shit as I do in Chesapeake. Even though most of it is in jest, it does get a little old sometimes.
I'll still have Xbox Live to play games with Joe and Brandon. I'll still have Myspace and Facebook to keep in contact. But it's all just really scary. In good ways, in bad ways. I know I'll only be 3 hours away, and I'm sure I'll come visit every handful of weeks to see some friends, but it's just going to be weird.
I really have no way to end this cryptic entry.
I am excited, though. I could be more excited. I know it's what I need, but there are just some factors that terrify me. Some that I still have zero faith in. Some that I'm really looking forward to. Life is never easy for me, just like it's never easy for anyone else. I'm basically tired of running and chasing and wanting. I just want to get to a place where I can be comfortable and content and not scared. And literally, I'm hoping that's Raleigh. Metaphorically, I have no clue where that place is. I have an idea, and it's not where you'd assume.
The more I realize how close I am to the people I work with, the more I realize how hard it's going to be when I get to the new store. We have such a mix of people working at The Noble, and while some of the people there I want to murder their faces, most of them don't get on my nerves. I'm going to miss the shared laughter and in-jokes. I also realize that will all (hopefully) come in time in Durham. Maybe I won't catch as much shit as I do in Chesapeake. Even though most of it is in jest, it does get a little old sometimes.
I'll still have Xbox Live to play games with Joe and Brandon. I'll still have Myspace and Facebook to keep in contact. But it's all just really scary. In good ways, in bad ways. I know I'll only be 3 hours away, and I'm sure I'll come visit every handful of weeks to see some friends, but it's just going to be weird.
I really have no way to end this cryptic entry.