The ramblings of the insane, remember?
Facebook messages in the middle of the day? the night? the thought process?
Interesting. Very interesting.
I will probably be in town for Festival (A great time to drop acid, but unfortunately I won't because of my epilepsy.) Other than that, I don't see myself there too often at all... doubting the festival thing, even. Just one of those things -- life moves on, people and places often get left behind. Especially in my life, unfortunately. I love them all, I do, my life just leads me in extreme directions sometimes.
I know how the insomnia feels, by the way... I do. I'm always up until atleast 2 (In fact, if it's before 2 AM I won't usually let myself go to sleep because it just seems so early...)
As far as the being in love thing... man, i'm starting to doubt it entirely. I'm realizing that my views on the whole thing have changed so extremely. ON love, on sex, on relationships. It's more about compatibility in my mind these days, and instinct. If I am going to date someone, it will probably happen within the first week. I tried dating someone that I had known a long time, and we decided against it after about 5 days.
And sex... well, sex by default has just turned into an inevitability in a serious relationship. I don't know what that means, exactly, I just know it's there.
You've known me the longest and strongest of anyone, so I guess that's why I've started rambling about this stuff... I didn't even realize how much it was bothering me/on my mind. Sex... I love it, yeah, but once upon a time I said I wouldn't do it with anyone I wasn't in love with.
Has that changed? I guess it has. I'm not sure. Ack.
I'm sorry about all of this... feel free to ignore it completely.
Interesting. Very interesting.
I will probably be in town for Festival (A great time to drop acid, but unfortunately I won't because of my epilepsy.) Other than that, I don't see myself there too often at all... doubting the festival thing, even. Just one of those things -- life moves on, people and places often get left behind. Especially in my life, unfortunately. I love them all, I do, my life just leads me in extreme directions sometimes.
I know how the insomnia feels, by the way... I do. I'm always up until atleast 2 (In fact, if it's before 2 AM I won't usually let myself go to sleep because it just seems so early...)
As far as the being in love thing... man, i'm starting to doubt it entirely. I'm realizing that my views on the whole thing have changed so extremely. ON love, on sex, on relationships. It's more about compatibility in my mind these days, and instinct. If I am going to date someone, it will probably happen within the first week. I tried dating someone that I had known a long time, and we decided against it after about 5 days.
And sex... well, sex by default has just turned into an inevitability in a serious relationship. I don't know what that means, exactly, I just know it's there.
You've known me the longest and strongest of anyone, so I guess that's why I've started rambling about this stuff... I didn't even realize how much it was bothering me/on my mind. Sex... I love it, yeah, but once upon a time I said I wouldn't do it with anyone I wasn't in love with.
Has that changed? I guess it has. I'm not sure. Ack.
I'm sorry about all of this... feel free to ignore it completely.