The rules have changed.

[clndestinewhore]

I didn't get the memo.
I though it was based on
How you felt around the person.
How they can always make you smile.
How they know just when to say the right things.
How your heart beats the same way, the same time.
How your whole mind is focused on them.
Not looks.
Not what their attention is on the most.
I can't keep doing this.
I want to, but I just can't.
I'll act like I can take the punch,
But really I'm murdered on the inside.
I never though It would come to this.
I never though that I would see the day.
That I would never love you anymore.
That I would see you & not get happy.
Maybe I wasn't suppost to find out.
Maybe things will change for you,
But I don't think they will for me right now.
As much as I want to love you, I know
I can't.
I shouldn't
I won't.
I can't let it happen again.
I'm done for good.
& I'm never turning back.
I'm sorry.