Why I am moving to Japan, what I am leaving behind, and what I hope to accomplish
I am primarily moving to Japan for a job. After being unemployed for the past five and a half months, it's about time and it's about time I found something that I actually want to do, rather than settling on some boring desk job. But am also moving to escape my life here in Laguna Beach, here in California, here in my mom's home, here in Orange County, here in gay Orange County. I hate all of it. I am also going to escape myself, my not-so-good friends, and my loneliness. I would rather have solitude than loneliness, and I can achieve that in Japan - if I wish it.
I am so tired of my "friends" - especially my male friends. They're all such fucking flakes. It's like they don't even care whether I'm dead or alive. So, as of March 22nd, I'll be dead to them. Simple. My female friends are better, but again, the ones I want to hang out with are unavailable. What the fuck? is this like - one of the great ironies of life or does anyone ever get what they want? Even my supposed best friend never responds.
While I'm in Japan, i want to make ONE good friend. ONE friend who will treat me as I like to be treated. I try so hard to be nice to people, to include them in my life, invite them to spend time together...and I'm sick of my efforts being unreciprocated. If I could find one male friend who would do these things for me, I would be so happy.
I am so tired of my "friends" - especially my male friends. They're all such fucking flakes. It's like they don't even care whether I'm dead or alive. So, as of March 22nd, I'll be dead to them. Simple. My female friends are better, but again, the ones I want to hang out with are unavailable. What the fuck? is this like - one of the great ironies of life or does anyone ever get what they want? Even my supposed best friend never responds.
While I'm in Japan, i want to make ONE good friend. ONE friend who will treat me as I like to be treated. I try so hard to be nice to people, to include them in my life, invite them to spend time together...and I'm sick of my efforts being unreciprocated. If I could find one male friend who would do these things for me, I would be so happy.