More emoness

[clit_lip_etz]

You once made me feel so flawless, and now I feel so flawed. Are you the one who changed, or was it me? Or perhaps neither of us, and all that changed was the illusion. Loving you made me feel like a queen, and now I feel degraded. You were once my only pleasure, and now you are my strongest pain. You tell me what I want to hear when you need satisfaction.Once i've pleased you and given you the satisfaction you desire, you tell me what i dont want to hear but "need" to hear, what I try so hard to avoid. I tried so hard to make you love me the way you used to love me. But then I realized that your love never changed, because you never really loved me. It was all an illusion. I realize this and yet I do nothing about it. I convince myself that i wont give into you. Then i see you, and all my self control melts away. I throw myself at you, so i can hear what i want to hear... I always have this false hope that this time you'll say what i want to hear when im not satisfying you, and that this time you'll mean it.

Love me or leave me, but stop playing with me.