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god it just really sucks having a friend ghost you for months on end to the point u don't even know if you're friends anymore.
like i've tried to reach out so many times, almost obsessively so, because i loved them and enjoyed being around them. doesn't help they dating an e-celeb so ur walking on eggshells making sure ur not trying to suck up or anything. and now i just hear that they're done with "people" but i see them talking in streams and when i try to talk i get ignored.
i know i should just let it go, it's done and they're not coming back, but it just really hurts because on top of that i had to leave a bunch of mutual friendships and i feel maybe they were influenced by the person that hates me for simply asking for a little support from a friend about mutual interests.
i never wanted to hate anyone but they saw me having an issue with the friendship as the entire friendship being a fuck up and then went and told everyone how terrible i was...now i can't seem to get over it and i'm paranoid they've pushed more people away from me because they think so highly of themselves. it hurts.