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What have I done wrong?
Were do I go from here?
I ask myself these things. Why did you do this to me? I dont understand. Im stuck here to mourn while you have the comfort of being in someones arms. Life isnt a fair game nothing great really has come out in my life in the past two years, I cant get into college, the love of my life is gone. Our supposed to be two years found out she was dating someone. And then I look like an idiot saying I love you. Who am I kidding if she loved me she would be here with me and no one else. I guess this is what I get for letting people take advantage of me. I am just going to keep my feelings to myself. It has really made me think...that some people are lucky to have someone with them. I hate being by myself because all the memories replay in my mind. I lost love something that was just so cherishable to me. I reminis us laying in the grass in the cemetary and me holding you as we gazed in the sky, and the day I said the magic word "I Love You" and the expression that was on your face was like you wanted to jump out of your skin and stay with me forever. I really thought that these last 4 months of my high school career that maybe we could be together and just live out the experience before I graduated. It looks like that isnt going to happen. You say it was because I didnt ask you out but I was waiting for the 28th so it could be special. I hate that I care and I hate how I love you. I know I didnt really pay as much attention to you in the past couple weeks is because my head was somewhere else. I learned from this that dont wait around for something you want if its there and willing then take it.
I love you.
Were do I go from here?
I ask myself these things. Why did you do this to me? I dont understand. Im stuck here to mourn while you have the comfort of being in someones arms. Life isnt a fair game nothing great really has come out in my life in the past two years, I cant get into college, the love of my life is gone. Our supposed to be two years found out she was dating someone. And then I look like an idiot saying I love you. Who am I kidding if she loved me she would be here with me and no one else. I guess this is what I get for letting people take advantage of me. I am just going to keep my feelings to myself. It has really made me think...that some people are lucky to have someone with them. I hate being by myself because all the memories replay in my mind. I lost love something that was just so cherishable to me. I reminis us laying in the grass in the cemetary and me holding you as we gazed in the sky, and the day I said the magic word "I Love You" and the expression that was on your face was like you wanted to jump out of your skin and stay with me forever. I really thought that these last 4 months of my high school career that maybe we could be together and just live out the experience before I graduated. It looks like that isnt going to happen. You say it was because I didnt ask you out but I was waiting for the 28th so it could be special. I hate that I care and I hate how I love you. I know I didnt really pay as much attention to you in the past couple weeks is because my head was somewhere else. I learned from this that dont wait around for something you want if its there and willing then take it.
I love you.