coma induced time travel
Recently i thought to myself that I keep observing my life as a point in time. That is, I see myself at a particular point in the fated story of my life. But i realized, i don't have anything to judge what the rest of my life will be like. I haven't travelled to the future. All my feelings of fate are just results of my imagination coupled with my hopes and fears to create some sort of vague representation of the future.
I'm of the opinion that the future exists. But now i'm of the opinion I'm not completley connected to that future. I dont' know what it's going to be like. I can only imagine and create images of what that future will be like, but that's not what my future will be like. I dont' think i've actually connected to that future. It also seems to me that it's probably not as simple as the future already exists. Maybe it's continually changing based on decisions we are making. In fact, i watched something about the 11 dimensions and it occurs to me at this moment that we are creating different futures based on our thoughts and decisions. One future is created for the Clinton that decides to do X, while another future is created for the Clinton that does Y. I suppose I'm just trying to connect to a particular future. Where i do Z.
The point of this is that my perspective on life changes when i realize that I'm only ever at this point in my life, and i can't really compare it to any other future point in my life. It brings about feelings of responsibility, where once perhaps i was a bit more blissfully hopeful and ignorant. This is good though.
I've also then realized that I'm essentially alone. Not connected with anything, unless i want to try. I have friends, but they are other objects. They arent' part of my mind. Does that mean unless something can connect to your thoughts you are alone. When we fall in love are we looking for someone who seems to know what we're thinking?
I'm going to stop here cause I haven't really thought about this...
I'm of the opinion that the future exists. But now i'm of the opinion I'm not completley connected to that future. I dont' know what it's going to be like. I can only imagine and create images of what that future will be like, but that's not what my future will be like. I dont' think i've actually connected to that future. It also seems to me that it's probably not as simple as the future already exists. Maybe it's continually changing based on decisions we are making. In fact, i watched something about the 11 dimensions and it occurs to me at this moment that we are creating different futures based on our thoughts and decisions. One future is created for the Clinton that decides to do X, while another future is created for the Clinton that does Y. I suppose I'm just trying to connect to a particular future. Where i do Z.
The point of this is that my perspective on life changes when i realize that I'm only ever at this point in my life, and i can't really compare it to any other future point in my life. It brings about feelings of responsibility, where once perhaps i was a bit more blissfully hopeful and ignorant. This is good though.
I've also then realized that I'm essentially alone. Not connected with anything, unless i want to try. I have friends, but they are other objects. They arent' part of my mind. Does that mean unless something can connect to your thoughts you are alone. When we fall in love are we looking for someone who seems to know what we're thinking?
I'm going to stop here cause I haven't really thought about this...