screw hollywood. we've got better things to do than fake our lives.
okay so today is thursday.
yeah and later on i am going to beauty and the beast.
to see heather yo and alex and jessica<3.
tee hee this should be fun a lot of people are going tonight.
it is the opening act yeay :D
but whoo what could i put in this thing?
well..this is going to be "one of those" updates.
sad & sappy so if you dont want to hear it.
------> here is your chance to leave, i am sorry my life is sad.
anywho but things lately are just ugh.
and whooo! people have been coming over a lot lately.
yay it has been fun! but this past weekend was shitty.
my dad just gets a little upset during st. patty's day.
which sucks because then i just get in a bad mood.
because all he did was complain to me,and yeah.
but my friends.. there is something missing.
like a piece to the puzzle is gone.
i am trying to find it, but i just just cant.
uhm i dont know how to explain it.
liek today we did poems and monica
had this really good one<3 it made me think.
just ...the real smilies the laughter.
is gone, yep just not there i dont know,
and my family makes me feel shitty.
because all they ask is do you have a boyfriend.
i swear constantly that is all i hear from them.
i dont know it just upsets me.
i feel like i am not good enough.
yeah stupid right? just because i dont have a boyfriend.
no kidding but they just make me feel shitty.
just a constant reminder right there of the past.
me myself, tthings just are weird.
no literally like i dont know.
these things are hitting me, one by one.
this is not even making sense anymore.
i know and i am sorry but i am one again just typing.
uh i hate high school, i like it but things have changed.
no you dont even understand.
but then again who does understand anything i say?
honestly i dont even anymore.
it just is stress.
yes that is EXACTLYwhat it is.
stress, i dont know why though.
things have been collapsing down on me lately.
i hate it.
breakdowns are more common why?
that is my question
people have been annoying me too easily lately.
ah jeez i dont like this update.
i am listening to music that makes me think more.
but i have to go clean my room.
HA. like i am going to do that?
but yeah i should stop because this is making me more sad
and making me feel even more shitty about myself.
i will soon to update again.